Definitely going

So I’ve been quiet for some time. Reason below.
I’m still loving my life and this new fad of making friends.
I think by now only about six or so pple are missing from a bunch I worked with straight from school- and they haven’t changed. Good coz they still love life(I can see by their smiles)

Oh Life! It can be lovely at times and then at times u just wanna quit.
Quit is how I sometimes feel but I quickly brush it away coz that ain’t me. Honestly. That’s not me.

Sometimes I feel like shouting. I seldom do shout. Shout for joy.
Just the joy of living.

My circle of friends is just on weird thing about me. Somehow I like hanging on the net and chatting and txting. Calling somehow died in me sometime back. It just happened. N way for the ones I haven’t talked to in ages it’d help to call or have a lunch date or something- somehow my life is full.
Then again it’s empty.
I’m just not getting my thoughts straight right now.
Thought I had something going but my mind’s not here right now. It’s next to me. It wants to go home. Ok, just for 2 day I’ll appease it and GO.
Coz this is coming out like I’m losing my touch.
Going
Going
gone!
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Cruising

That's what I like to call it. I seem to be living life on the fast lane but don't want it to be so.
Somehow my days are now shorter and not everything is fitting into this tiny day.
LIIIIIIIIIIIE!
NO! That's how I feel about my days. Seems I'm running from one place to the other, looking for this n that-still after all this, there's just more stuff undone.
Stuff I should've done.
I'm working on it.I'll close this coz it ain't going further than this.

Much ado-to do?

Haven't had the chance to write for over 7 days- that's long considering I'd decided to make this a hobby- blogging online.
It's been a long week with thanksgiving and lots of 'what the heck happened?' and 'whaa..t?'
Did a lot of gallivanting coz there wasn't much to do at the desk and then I didn't feel like writing.
People disappoint me. They really do. I pray I don't disappoint as often as a certain bunch I've come to look at as 'those guys'. Honestly, there's the barest minimum of integrity and compassion that you expect from certain people in certain places. Somehow these people don't seem to be aware of what's expected of them or they're great at faking it. I still don't want to believe that they really have no hearts-emotions, compassion- that sort of thing.
Still I love people. That's why I still pray for them. Had a fab day on Wednesday when I got a call for an interview the next day. I've been praying for a change of job like forever-a very long time. I was so excited I shared with friends the goods news.
Mistake number one.
I told them the date and time and where I was going.
Second mistake.
I even asked someone to find out their packages- I think that was the biggest mistake.
I call it that now coz I just had to sit and not get depressed when the bubble burst.
I got a message that the interview had been postponed till further notice just before noon- 3hrs b4 the interview.
I just bit my lip and said 'ah, well this was at least a hint that something will happen-eventually'.
Just two days b4 that, I'd got a call from someone asking for my cv and when I sent it they were impressed-so they said. I will pay them a visit one of the fine days to follow for a chat so that they know what I'm after.
The honest truth is that I'm after a change. Just a change so that I start using my brain once again. When u've been there done that, know that, and can predict what will happen in 3 days- u've seen it all and will be sick to the bone of the routines. That's where I'm at.
I've been lazy at times I do admit and at times I was just so sceptical of the jobs i applied for I believe I eliminated myself from them by just deciding it wasn't the right job for me or the right environ.
I think what helped me stay on top of all this was this realisation about friends.
It all started with one friend. She invited us to Facebook and believe it or not friends who last met two dozens of years ago have just been reunited. What's exiting about this is that the list keeps on growing and i know we will have a gas just interacting even if it's just online.
the great thing about it is that many of haven't changed. We're still a lively lot who just love life.
i think that's the secret to longevity- LOVE LIFE and HAVE FUN WITH FRIENDS.
To all my online friends- thanks for just being radical. I love you that way. Will come up with an ode one of these fine days.

Almost there

Yesterday I said 'maybe'
Today I say 'could it be?'
Then I wonder 'will it be'
I'll go with 'almost' for now.

Could've
Should've
Would've
Might've

I'm not one to brood over possibilities
But it's just not a good feeling when
You're now going thru 'almost'
And saying ' did I hope too far?'

It's pretty awful regretting,
I know I once went over that hill.
I still climb mountains of hope,
I never look forward to tumbling off them.

I can withstand defeat,
I gracefully acknowledge defeat.
I seldom accept defeat,
I never anticipate defeat.

I still climb mountains of hope,
I will not give up.
An obstacle is just that,
An object that I'll have to go round- to get there.

I will get there,
By climbing mountains of hope.
One day I will shout atop that mountain,
'I made it!'

Hope may be the only thing left,
So it may seem at times.
Climb that mountain,
And one day surely you will be on top.

If you take note of the dew on your feet,
You may call it water,
And feel very wet,
But as the sun rises it will dry off,
And in no time you will be there- home and dry.
So continue, soldier on.
We will get there.

Will keep you posted

I think I finally found a place!!!!!!!!!!!

Breakthroughs

There's a message I'm listeneing to about breakthorughs. Title is "come out and don't go back'.
It's about breaking down the walls.
Apparently I cannot move on until I leave all this stuff behind. I hope u know the story of the manna and then moving into the land of milk and honey. Long story short now is the manna and next is the land of honey. We've got to realise that now is temporary and ain't the best we can get.
Well, I'm looking at myself and saying 'yeah, I guess now is the time to move on. Donno what I've been waiting for'.
If you ever want to listen to it it's on theonlineword.com
Back to this post.
I really am getting to be desperate about moving out.
I NEED MY SLEEP!!!!!!
I pray I get a place soon.
Today's been one of those tough days you just want to shout at someone then you start on counting the number of times you ought to 4give them and 490 is a long way.
490=70x7.
At some point I just said I'd given up but the truth is that I gave up on anger. Not people.
I love people.
Ireally do.
You're all God's creation so why not?
More on that another day.
Today I'm working on breaking thru.

Know it all?

I sometimes feel that way.
Been there, done that, seen that.
Then of course the " I know that".
I sometimes feel inclined to stop myself somewhere along the way,
Then all of a sudden these people carry on going the wrong way.
Throwing around unfounded suppositions, drawing impossible conclusions,
Imagining the unthinkable.
Worst of all, throwing around opinion as fact. Then I come in.......
I just let myself go. They end up listening to me.
I challenge them,
I send them reading and researching.
They come back and want to know how come I know so much.
I read, I listen, I learn, I ASK, I verify.
On top of all this I know I need to keep on top of the situation, lest I fall under and become one of the stories I relate.
I don't have to make all the mistakes for me to know the right way,
I take other's mistakes as my own and help them recover.
that way I know how to avoid their mistakes and pitfalls,
And know how to advise.
When it comes to The Holy Book, I move around with one ALWAYS.
yep, a small New Testament for the handbag and a pocketsize for the suitcase when I do travel.
That way when I’m not 100% on the verse I look it up. I send them reading.
Knowing the facts is very important if ever one should want to follow this habit of mine of engaging in talk with all sorts of people on all sorts of topics.
It’s really fun.
Try it.
The easiest is reading
The neatest is asking.
And you’ll get kick from just sharing and helping sort things and facts out.