Ambition-Desire-Aspiration

“I have no ambition” I remember saying this out loud some other day What had happened ? I really don’t know So what? Did I mean it? I think so. I’m not that loose with my mouth .ha! ha! Though I cannot remember what had happened I do know it was something to do with work. I can’t complain about my job. I gave up long ago hoping to be a bit shot in the company I guess you could say I’m myopic when it comes to qualifications and careers I don’t believe one needs a degree to be a manager I’m sticking to my guns on that I actually decided not to get a degree just to prove my point and guess what I proved it! I’ve got a job with degree and masters’ holders as my peers How? God’s grace I know I’m bright but I also know I can be stupid and irrational at times So what? They’re all like me at times (some are like that most of the time) What’s my point? I have no ambition in the workplace as I have no desire to lick someone’s but to go up the corporate ladder I will also not play second fiddle to someone who holds more certificates than I do from overseas universities and colleges No! I refuse I will humbly show them that what I learnt in high school and the world is enough to teach them how they can better handle their jobs and not keep on asking me things they ought to know So in the work place I respect authority but I will not go an extra mile to seek recognition in case that person will determine what mu next job will be I will not. I just pray that God steers me in the right direction and I do His bidding Actually I’m tired of working and need to come up with a business plan in the next month and be done with all this stuff 

Compliments of the new year!

That's my sign off line to people I've been emailing for the first time this year. :) What does it really mean? For me it just means i'm lazy to find out how they are doing and how their new year's going. And i also probably never sent them a message in the wee hours of the first day of 2013. Those close to me that I normally call or chat with daily are the ones I sent messages in the early hours of 2013 wishing them all the good things for 2013 Oh! That’s what this post is meant to be about What are the compliments for the New Year? (just saw my grammar/spell check wanted capitalization on new year- so it is a big thing…..) Almost everyone wishes the next person a happy new year And a prosperous one at that Seriously, wouldn’t you be happy with prosperity? I actually thought the compliments for the New Year should be along the lines of good health, better prospects, success at finishing that thing you started last year, finally DOING that thing you’ve been putting on every New Year’s resolution list, and all the nice stuff you’d wish to befall the next person you care about So what about my compliments on business emails to sometimes strangers? I do it to lighten the mood What if they never got a happy new year message from anyone in their contact list at work? Do you think they’ll even get time to be thinking about their resolutions whilst at work? Hardly likely unless they’re work resolutions Why do I say that? Because work-wise for the bulk of us, a new year is just a restart to last year’s cycle and not many of us look at that with open hands It’s most likely to be just another day and all the fanfare is forgotten and you need to come to speed with what’s now demanding your attention in the IN tray So sometimes it’s just nice to send that one email wishing people a happy new year and maybe thank them for the one past coz they made it what is was and without them you may not be feeling that light headed as you read your first email for the year I’m just saying send someone a happy new year email coz it’ll change the way they think you think about them It’ll be positive believe u me. HAPPY NEW YEAR! (it’s never late for someone you haven’t conversed with coz they don’t know how long your holiday was and how much time you spent going thru mails that came in whilst you were out of office. So make it THE FIRST email)

Prayer works

I'm grateful for prayer answered. When you're down to nothing pray and God will hear your prayers and answer. I'm releived as I just left it all to Him and now I am elated. I feel a burden has been lifted. Thank You Lord.

Happiness Quotes

A lot has been side tracking me this year. Much of it would normally crush the spirit and make one give up and not have hope of anything good EVER happening. But I just looked at it and said – that’s not part of me, I can still be happy with or without the world’s standards for happiness. So, I decided to be happy. I can be happy with just what I have. A few quotes on happiness struck me as something to share when I read them "To be happy, add not to your possessions but subtract from your desires." Seneca “A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones" (Proverbs 17:22) "Happiness is not based on money and the greatest proof of that is our family!" Christina Onassis And many fail to see that their relationship with God does matter. "Have your heart right with Christ, and he will visit you often, and so turn weekdays into Sundays, meals into sacraments, homes into temples, and earth into heaven." Spurgeon

My rant at Nairobi

So here I am about to say hello home! I’ve been in Nairobi since Monday last week and I have to say there are some people who made me feel at home. Needless to say there are two Kenyans on the list. Actually I have to say they are on the list Why? Because the rest have been more or less tolerating me The two are a guy and a girl. I sit with them and they went an extra mile to make me feel welcome. Now I have 3 Kenyans I can say I connect with. Here I have to say the third I’ve never met. I just follow her blog The rest of the people who made me feel welcome and at home are from Zambia, Malawi and of course Zimbabwe. They are now based here permanently and I guess because the people here are not so open or welcoming, they’ve now formed their own clique. So they took me for lunch a couple of days and we chat So there! They got to me via food Back home we have a saying ‘hukama igasva hunozadziswa nekudya’ Translated, friendship or relationships are a bond that ties people together and it is kept strong and alive by FOOD  I really don’t know what it is with the Kenyans I work with, they just have a phobia of us Zimbos and they think they are superior to everyone else Yes, you can only be made to feel less by someone ONLY with your consent But when they throw it in your face and make decisions that ensure you’re below them, well it’s kinda hard to have kind feelings or sentiments towards them Anyway, my point is they’re just not friendly or open They are just too much focused on cultural boundaries that they let the world pass them by How? They don’t interact well with outsiders and believe you me they become too bigoted they think they are the best they can be or there is yet someone better is sitting next to them They could learn A LOT of things from others not just foreigners but from each other and actually make their country something which a Zimbabwean can say they can without a doubt want to make home I’m not just saying because I feel homesick, but the sentiments are the same from any black person I’ve talked to who’s not from Kenya It’s unanimous “those people” when you speak to anyone about a Kenyan even people outside my organization who work with Kenyans or have worked with them The down side of their character is that it strains the other party to a point where they don’t interact but just work They make you lose passion and become like them –God forbid! I’ve come across a bunch who won’t say outright they’ve made a blunder They’ll push it under the rug and hope no one notices a change I hate people who are not honest Integrity is something I value in business and life, so when it’s a good bunch of people who wait for the boat to sink lest someone knows they drilled a hole by mistake, I’m just aggravated to fight Natural right? Maybe not But I find out that I fight more often when I’m working with Kenyans I don’t know how someone cannot listen and hear that you’re saying the same thing as they want to say to you. Worse if it’s something you’ve already done For crying out loud, why do you want things to play out in your words when they’ve already taken place on my terms It’s just infuriating and I’ll be glad to be home They hide behind being independent like forever that someone did poor planning hence the state of the country, but for heaven’s sake, why don’t you care about the brother next to you Ethnic lines are just killing and delaying whatever good there can be for this country My country by my standards and theirs even, is beautiful I just can’t figure the disorganisation there is with their city structure But hey, guess that’s another part of Africa that lives by it’s own rules and pride But come on, at least care about the next person without being forced. Then I’ll think of you in a better light. God knows why they are like what they are and I pray one day they will be a breed of people someone wishes to be like or be intimate with (someone other than an east African of course).

Going in circles

So the firat post back was that and this is teh second one. Much has changed actually. LOL I'm happier and setteled with where I am in life I'll give thanks for the gift of life and knowledge as without them i would not know hwta I have and the value And of course the value of what i have is so much underestimated as only if i were to lose it would i know the full value of it all Heaven forbid! I read the other time about how so unhappy most of us are due to teh fact that we are so concerned with what we don't have and end up not enjoying what we actually have And sometimes the stories are actually sadder than just that fact people lose what they had which they had overlooked whilst trying to get what they don't have and then they spend the next cycle in life complaining about what they had and what they'll now probably never have contentment That's a word It is difficult to be contenet with what we have when we beleibve we can actually get more than what we have. "It is easier to renounce worldly possessions than it is to renounce the love of them." — Walter Hilton "There can be no doubt that possessive clinging to things is one of the most harmful habits in the Christian life. Because it is so natural, it is rarely recognized for the evil that it is. But its outworkings are tragic." — A. W. Tozer

Resume

So I've been away for long and I won't take time explaining. Procrastination.