Prayer works

I'm grateful for prayer answered. When you're down to nothing pray and God will hear your prayers and answer. I'm releived as I just left it all to Him and now I am elated. I feel a burden has been lifted. Thank You Lord.

Happiness Quotes

A lot has been side tracking me this year. Much of it would normally crush the spirit and make one give up and not have hope of anything good EVER happening. But I just looked at it and said – that’s not part of me, I can still be happy with or without the world’s standards for happiness. So, I decided to be happy. I can be happy with just what I have. A few quotes on happiness struck me as something to share when I read them "To be happy, add not to your possessions but subtract from your desires." Seneca “A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones" (Proverbs 17:22) "Happiness is not based on money and the greatest proof of that is our family!" Christina Onassis And many fail to see that their relationship with God does matter. "Have your heart right with Christ, and he will visit you often, and so turn weekdays into Sundays, meals into sacraments, homes into temples, and earth into heaven." Spurgeon

My rant at Nairobi

So here I am about to say hello home! I’ve been in Nairobi since Monday last week and I have to say there are some people who made me feel at home. Needless to say there are two Kenyans on the list. Actually I have to say they are on the list Why? Because the rest have been more or less tolerating me The two are a guy and a girl. I sit with them and they went an extra mile to make me feel welcome. Now I have 3 Kenyans I can say I connect with. Here I have to say the third I’ve never met. I just follow her blog The rest of the people who made me feel welcome and at home are from Zambia, Malawi and of course Zimbabwe. They are now based here permanently and I guess because the people here are not so open or welcoming, they’ve now formed their own clique. So they took me for lunch a couple of days and we chat So there! They got to me via food Back home we have a saying ‘hukama igasva hunozadziswa nekudya’ Translated, friendship or relationships are a bond that ties people together and it is kept strong and alive by FOOD  I really don’t know what it is with the Kenyans I work with, they just have a phobia of us Zimbos and they think they are superior to everyone else Yes, you can only be made to feel less by someone ONLY with your consent But when they throw it in your face and make decisions that ensure you’re below them, well it’s kinda hard to have kind feelings or sentiments towards them Anyway, my point is they’re just not friendly or open They are just too much focused on cultural boundaries that they let the world pass them by How? They don’t interact well with outsiders and believe you me they become too bigoted they think they are the best they can be or there is yet someone better is sitting next to them They could learn A LOT of things from others not just foreigners but from each other and actually make their country something which a Zimbabwean can say they can without a doubt want to make home I’m not just saying because I feel homesick, but the sentiments are the same from any black person I’ve talked to who’s not from Kenya It’s unanimous “those people” when you speak to anyone about a Kenyan even people outside my organization who work with Kenyans or have worked with them The down side of their character is that it strains the other party to a point where they don’t interact but just work They make you lose passion and become like them –God forbid! I’ve come across a bunch who won’t say outright they’ve made a blunder They’ll push it under the rug and hope no one notices a change I hate people who are not honest Integrity is something I value in business and life, so when it’s a good bunch of people who wait for the boat to sink lest someone knows they drilled a hole by mistake, I’m just aggravated to fight Natural right? Maybe not But I find out that I fight more often when I’m working with Kenyans I don’t know how someone cannot listen and hear that you’re saying the same thing as they want to say to you. Worse if it’s something you’ve already done For crying out loud, why do you want things to play out in your words when they’ve already taken place on my terms It’s just infuriating and I’ll be glad to be home They hide behind being independent like forever that someone did poor planning hence the state of the country, but for heaven’s sake, why don’t you care about the brother next to you Ethnic lines are just killing and delaying whatever good there can be for this country My country by my standards and theirs even, is beautiful I just can’t figure the disorganisation there is with their city structure But hey, guess that’s another part of Africa that lives by it’s own rules and pride But come on, at least care about the next person without being forced. Then I’ll think of you in a better light. God knows why they are like what they are and I pray one day they will be a breed of people someone wishes to be like or be intimate with (someone other than an east African of course).

Going in circles

So the firat post back was that and this is teh second one. Much has changed actually. LOL I'm happier and setteled with where I am in life I'll give thanks for the gift of life and knowledge as without them i would not know hwta I have and the value And of course the value of what i have is so much underestimated as only if i were to lose it would i know the full value of it all Heaven forbid! I read the other time about how so unhappy most of us are due to teh fact that we are so concerned with what we don't have and end up not enjoying what we actually have And sometimes the stories are actually sadder than just that fact people lose what they had which they had overlooked whilst trying to get what they don't have and then they spend the next cycle in life complaining about what they had and what they'll now probably never have contentment That's a word It is difficult to be contenet with what we have when we beleibve we can actually get more than what we have. "It is easier to renounce worldly possessions than it is to renounce the love of them." — Walter Hilton "There can be no doubt that possessive clinging to things is one of the most harmful habits in the Christian life. Because it is so natural, it is rarely recognized for the evil that it is. But its outworkings are tragic." — A. W. Tozer

Resume

So I've been away for long and I won't take time explaining. Procrastination.

My true love

I was surprised to find this note on my 4ne. I wrote it last year in May. Right now what I feel is embodied in this note. I thank God for bringing me and th love of my life together. Now I can say if u love someone set them free. If they come back they were meant 4 u and if they don't , well they weren't meant 4 u. Thank you Lord Jesus.
I 've thought i've fallen in love b4. i say thought as I fell out of love in those instances. It was emotional. It sometimes was out of need and not JUST. Someone came into my life and I didn't think they'd stay for long. If anything I entertained them just to see what would happen. As i write I have no words to say except that i am in love with the most wonderful person on earth. I've been shown what true love is. It stays. When the wind blows, when the fire dies, when there is silence, when there is turmoil, when there is celebration, when there is nothing to see, it stays. It hopes, it prays, it listens, it soothes, it pains, it joys, it loves, it cares, it gives, it shares, it is peace. True love is unconditional love. True love is what I am experiencing and I would not trade it for anything as it is subliminal.

Starting over

Yesterday I made what I may call the worst mistake in my life. Well, worst after one I made when I was about to be 21.
Anyway I'm glad today I can look up and say I'm forgiven for what I did. I had the most beautiful day today. Yes, today was the most beautiful day and I'm thankful for the chance I was given to start over. I had given in and said bad things about something but the bigger person between us made sure I was corrected. I want to thank my best friend for forgiving me. Thank you for a beautiful day. I now know what love is. Thank you.

What I will not do

It's easy to write down what we want to do at the beginning of the year each 1st week of the year
What I will instead write down is what i will not do;
Procrastinate
Cheat
backbite
Lie
Steal
Compromise my beliefs
Kill people's dreams
Forget to forgive.