I'm worth a lot

"In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question...... "What kind of man are you looking for?"

She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking. "Do you really want to know?"

Reluctantly, he said, "Yes."

She began to expound... “As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man. I am in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?"”

The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.

She quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am not referring to money. I need something more." I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life."

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain.

She said, "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple-minded man.
I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked... believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster.
I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden.
I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded.
I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a helpmate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself.”

When she finished her spill, she looked at him.

He sat there with a puzzled look on his face.

He said, "You're asking a lot."

She replied, "I'm worth a lot.""

Jupiter, moon, Venus

So last night I get a text from my brother to go outside, look at the moon and take pictures. I do it and voila! I see two bright stars flanking the moon and the two make a straight line-star moon, star. I just loved the sight. To me it was just beautiful seeing the moon crest and the two stars on the side in perfect alignment. I took what I hope will come out ok using my phone. Before doing that I passed on the message to a few friends I felt are on the same side of crazy as me. One called and we went on and on about it. It was just one of those things that sometimes get me sort of crazy when I marvel at the wonders of nature. So today someone I’d txd calls me to show me photos from the net of what we were looking at and whaddaya know! Those weren’t just stars, it was Jupiter to the left and Venus to the right. Depending on where u saw these three from yesterday night, it could be the line, triangle or would you believe it- a smiling face (sorry for those with a sad face.). Still on the same issue it’s amazing how we see things. For some it was just a good night out to be looking in the sky and some the smiling face said a lot. Actually the smiling face found a way of giving back hope to people after the Mumbai attacks. So depending on where u look at something from and what’s happening in your life – it’s a smile or just the moon and stars. I haven’t got round to downloading my photos so for now I’ll share these photos I took the other time my brother told me to look up. This was during the day. God at work.

Just had to..

Now that we’ve nearly come to the end of the year, I thought I’d see what happened in my life.
There were ups and downs and coz today is an up and I’m full of praise, even if the ups may have been less than the downs, their effect was indeed greater.
For real- coz I still remember them.
The ups-
Fun with friends
Fun with family
Meeting new friends
Miracles when logic said NO
And still more gifts of happiness…

God has shown His favour on my family once again this year.
My sister in law was blessed with a baby boy on Tuesday 18/11/08
My family’s growing – we’re expecting another baby early next year from another sister in-law
These sisters in law joined the family this year
And so my family is growing and His favour continues showing each day
We’re now sort of scattered all over as part of growing up but when we visit each other it’s double the fun of being always together
I’ll get back to this and post this for now
Another unexpected blessing came my way today
Praise always

In progress

There’s a lot of jazz that goes around such that after some time people actually start believing it. Many things go unchecked and they end up being taken as fact. Now the sorry bit about all this is that most of this goes around just becoz of hate and ignorance.
I’ve been meaning to go about something and hopefully get to help some people see the light and maybe change their opinions around that subject coz they’ll know more about it. Actually I have two issues to tackle- lies and faith.
They don’t go hand in hand but maybe they just may be tackled in parallel coz one’s got to do with the other in some way.
I see I’m still incoherent even to myself so I’ll do this the old fashioned way- I’ll write on paper, sort the mess and come post next week. Hopefully I’ll have leess work than the past 3weeks and will actually finish a post in one day and not weeks like what’s happening now.

The beginning of something great.......

"A stumble may prevent a fall"
-Thomas Fuller

Why I do it

I actually don't do these things coz I want to aggravate people. Stuff just happens coz I speak my mind-most of the times. If I cannot then I write it down or tell someone who's not in the mess and at least they have a story they heard sometime.
It's actually getting to a point where I think there'll be a fight coz I just won't take some of this stuff quietly.
I cannot just be quiet when people take me for granted, I cannot be quiet when people do unreasonable things
I cannot be quiet when people do wrong
I cannot be quiet when people don't know
I cannot be quiet when I have joyous news to share
I cannot be quiet when people pass on lies as truth
I cannot be quiet when people do not take responsibility
I cannot be quiet when leaders do not act out of integrity
I just cannot be quiet
I speak.
I talk.
I tell.
I sometimes shout
I never yell
I cannot be quiet
I was brought up with the truth and if I die, better to die in truth than lie in lies.

An ode to friendship

I have many friends
Some I’ve chosen
Some have chosen me
Some by association
Some by choice
Some by nature
Some by design- not my design, but design nonetheless

With some friends we’re constantly in touch
Some I just know where they are-but cannot get in touch with
With others we mail back and forth frequently
Then out of the blue some I meet
Yet with others out of the blue they call and just want to talk
We won’t see each other for some time but the talk manes a lot In keeping us together

Daily I pray for at least one of my friends
Each morning before I wake there’s one friend I have a reverie about
Why it’s happening I’m not sure
All the same, I love it and appreciate it
Otherwise how else could I remember the many associations I’ve made over the years
I know at that time I have to pray over something in their life that’s happening


There are some friends I’m close with
We share what’s up in our lives
We know whom we can count on for advice or just an ear for our rants
There are some who are so closed off it’s difficult to help when they won’t let the whole story out
But talk we still do and try to map a way forward

Letting someone know they’re appreciated goes a long way
In those moments I feel down I remember times spent with friends
Conversations, moments, arguments, debates, laughter
There’s much I share with friends
I just wanted to say ‘thank you’ to all my friends
Thank you for being the kind of friend you are
You all fill different spaces in my life
Thank you for making my life full
I love you all just the way you are

Life's gr8

I apologise
I’ve been mostly incoherent on this blog
I haven’t been actually writing
I’ve been more or less just babbling
There’s so much I’ve got to say but it’s still coming out all muddled up even I cannot cope with the speed it crosses thru my brain and my typing speed let alone access to jot down something
I’m still separating mush from stuff and looking for the real things
I hope my apology will be considered
I’ll give a shout of praise for what’s been happening in my life
Tuesday I could not believe what I was being told and I went on Wednesday with a lot of doubt such that I didn’t notice that what I’d been told the day before was different from what I got that day
I was too jubilant and congratulating myself that I’d finally done it
I’m grateful for that deliverance
Yesterday was a day I dreaded
I could have bet I was going to have a miserable day
We’d been discussing trends since last month and what we excepted was sure to be as right as rain
Trends showed a definite slump, on this we could have bet
Wham!
We swallowed our words
What we never even imagined is what we got
Beyond measure is what we got and I’m double grateful for that
Now I can say “tings r gr8!!!!”

Truth or idle

There’s a time when I ask myself why people bother trying to be who they are not
I think this is mainly when these people cannot live with the truth
Many people struggle with the truth
Accepting it and offering it
Regarding accepting it, it’s not that much an issue coz facts will be facts whether they take it or not
What I have an issue with is when people do not offer the truth-most of the time
We’ve gotten to a situation where compromise is the order of the day
Sometimes I think people feel they just have to say something and go ahead and put forward a notion that they don’t believe in
Days later when asked about their stance, they deny ever being thus minded
Imagine!
People now say things for the sake of being part of a conversation and you have to confirm if they’re serious about what they just said
It’s infuriating whne you have to almost prove that they did say what they said
Then shyly they say’yes, I said so but I just said it, I didn’t mean it”
Seriously, what needs to be done so that you have a decent conversation that you don’t go home worrying over coz u’re not sure if the person was in truth mode or just talking mode

Faith in a chaotic world

Things are going roller coaster around me
One day we’re all a happy family
The next we’re scattered all over the place
One day things look very promising for the country
The next they’re in chaos
I guess that’s the result of having faith in things
Real faith does not rest in things
Real faith does not depend on logic
Real faith is inexplicable
Real faith just lets you pray without having to prove that what you’ve prayed on is possible
I think it’s this bit about limitless faith that many of us haven’t grasped
Look again at the first verse of Hebrews 11
It seems not to make sense, huh?
The evidence of things not seen
If you cannot see something then how do you know it’s there?
Go back one step
The substance of things not seen
Things that cannot be seen have substance
Now if things that cannot be seen have substance
Then it means that they can be proven to exist
Think about it one moment and you’ll agree
Faith is saying i m possible

Much obliged

I’m a billionaire once again!
Nothing to shout about considering what people are now up to get money but definitely something to write home about considering this is from investments I haven’t added to in quite a while.
When I decide to go on the stock market I had excess cash then and nowadays there just ain’t excess but I play around with my current portfolio.......

Started the above yesterday and just didn’t find time to finish it.
To fulfil a promise I had to post something- here it’s truly an obligation:)
Have a blessed weekend- go fellowship….

Gone to seed?

I just thought to pop my head in for a minute coz I’ve been gallivanting a lot on the net.
Promise to be back soooooooon.

Last week

Where do I start?
Let’s try where I left off on my last post if I can remember it.
I was going to have a fun filled weekend and that I did. Saturday we went for the Charambas family show which featured Vabati Vevhangeri. The Charambas are a couple who sing gospel music. It’s been said of the husband that he’ll be around in the music business for long. He takes an excerpt from the Bible and does a song for it so when u look at Bible events……there are too many to mention.
Vabati Vevhangeri are an apostolic faith outfit (I think, coz they dress like that) who basically sing acapella with just hand rattles as the accompaniment to clapping as they sing.
We had a ball of a time dancing and singing along. That’s Saturday afternoon.
Sunday we went for a combined service for Harare West District. My denomination is Methodist Church In Zimbabwe so it was red and black all over accentuated with white. Little did we know that we had someone of high standing among us. The prime minister designate was at church with us. He’s in the Mabelreign circuit so he’s in my district. As a church we were asked to pray for his family and he had to go to the front with his wife to be prayed for. What awed and fascinated me is that he knew the rigmarole when someone is to be prayed for. It confirmed for me that he wasn’t around for the show of it but he does attend service at his local church. I guess he’s not as committed as his wife who was in full church uniform.(committed=full member, regular attendance and fellowship with a group such as men/women/youth)
Nonetheless it was quite a humbling moment as all acknowledged that no matter who one is, in the face of God we are all equal and fall short of His glory hence the need for constant fellowship to bring us closer to him.
So in all I had a fabulous week. Recap- dressed in shades of blue Mon-Fri, naturals on Sat coz it was an outdoor thing, then red & black for Sunday worship.
Yep, I had a gr8 week.

The week-so far

It has been a lovely week so far and the week’s end is going to be great
I just know it!
There’s going to be a family gospel show on Saturday and when I first saw the advert I decided I’ll be there and there I’ll be
Also something additional came
I’ve been sort of gallivanting as far as church is concerned. I’m not too hung up on denomination if I cannot get to my church on a Sunday
So I go around
I miss my home church. There’s going to be a district convention starting tomorrow till Sunday and I’ll be there again
I’m sure to have a blast of a time
I’ve been a bit enterprising and I was a bit surprised I actually succeeded-by my standards
Thanks be to the Lord coz things may not have worked out how they’ve done so far
A bit pressed on time coz this week I’ve actually been working
That’s now scarce these days ;-)

psst.....I've dressed in blue 3days this week-wonder what colour I'll be in 2mo.......)

Promising

It's a week that's promising to be beautiful like no other
I had a lovely weekend hanging with friends
Had a long chat with another girlfriend about life
And today people are wearing my colour
And they're all wearing it so well!
It's a blue Monday
No Monday blues here, but just the beautiful colour
How many things have that as their natural colour
Not many
And those which have it....
Aren't they just lovely
There's a reason why I like that colour
The shades of blue.......
Yes, it will be a lovely week.

And so.......

I took one of those trips across blogger land and I’m back.
It’s been quite interesting the blogs I came across
At some point I don’t know why but I thot I shouldn’t connect with people on another continent
Then I thought- prejudice……prejudice….
So I may take the leap- note- may
The issue at hand is that I seem to connect with some of the people I come across
They’re so different from me but there’s so much happening in our lives that’s similar at the point at which I come across their blogs
I still maintain there’s a reason I come across all that I do in life
Yeah, some of it is rubbish but some of it is meaningful stuff
Some have actually made it to be on my blog list (yeah, yeah, as if matters two cents-maybe it does)
I did say I like reading
I was about to put a disclaimer on whether I endorse whatever’s posted on the blogs I read, then I thought ‘ do I really need to account to someone right now?’
NOT!
I was feeling rather violated in some way
I know I liked the thing of having a website and putting it on Facebook and my closed mind somehow actually believed none of my friends would look for that site
Yeah, obtuse me
I did it and I will not delete any of my blogs
Now that I know there’s someone reading what I write, it know kinda makes me want to edit all I write about, so to speak
I’m a bit guarded when I write- at times, not always
And also there was this issue on why I even started blogging
I stumbled across it and I liked it
Then the polishing of what write and formats and content…all such stuff
I’ve now got three different blogs on blogger for that
Still I felt I needed to let go coz I’m feeling under the microscope
So I did it
Actually I have no idea why I’m writing about it
But I created another blog on another…….
Just know there’s a fourth notepad of mine on the net
So I said it.

Moments with my mum

This is just but one of the wonderful memories I will treasure
We spent the weekend at home
Home is my mum’s place, my place I’m yet to call it that
We had quite a nice time just being together
It’d been long since such a crowd gathered at my mum’s
With moving out it’s now a very small unit and I guess not much diversity in terms of events
She’s the one person I know who keeps on giving no matter what
She’ll tell u u’ve done so and so and she doesn’t like it but since u need the help she’ll still extend her hand
Despite some relationships that have gone bad,
I have never heard her say she will never help that person becoz of what they did
I guess that’s just her
She has two grand children and expecting two more in the next three months
So…..she did shopping for them and I know it was hard for her deciding what to give to which daughter and the colours and all that stuff
I’m at a loss for words trying to describe my weekend
It was just lovely
I miss her nowadays coz we spend just a few days together
I guess I now know the feeling of nostalgia
There’s so much she still does for me despite me being away from home
And it just makes me feel I could never do without her
She’s always been there for me and now I miss her so much……

Vices n Virtues

Somehow I got hung up trying to come up with a post on virtues without much research and I still want something to post so here goes.
Virtue (n.)- asset, good quality, good feature, desirable quality, good value, good worth, high merit, high calibre.
Doesn’t it all sound so good? I then got to remember the opposite and decided it’d be the opposite that I’d focus on coz somehow it’s a bit easier expounding on that without having to do much research on my part.
Vice- a practice or habit that is considered immoral, depraved, and/or degrading in the associated society.
When you think of virtues goodness come to mind and it’s just that simple to think of all the good things one should and can do. But when it comes to vices we seldom really look at what we ought not to do. We look at the top line veils and we know ‘we don’t do that’ and leave the rest to imagination as we consider our ‘small evils’ not worth mentioning.
So I’m just going to just pick seven from the Bible and leave you to ponder on them. It’s what I consider to be a very succinct summary of vices we all push back and are guilty of most of the times. I’m bringing them up becoz the Lord abhors them

A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood,. An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief, A false witness that speaketh lies, and he that soweth discord among brethren.- PROVERBS 6:18-19

Scheduling

So, I'm now using this feature so that i stop this thing of not posting daily or letting my feelings stop me from doing my favourite pasttime.
I just hope in terms of Dewdrops my timing is appropriate for those who pass by and they will find something helpful when they do pass by. I'm just trying to do all I can, when I can to help others and to spread the good news. I just remebered Wesley ;) and I will desist from quoting him. Google it!

Though it tarry, it will not tarry

I had to separate these posts so as not to loose the shout out I wanted to make.
Once again it’s a time when God has shown outright that He’s in control all the time. By the way I’m in Zimbabwe :) Recently we had a landmark agreement made politically and it’s meant to be the dawning of new era. I’m sure I’m not the only one holding my breath so that I know when I let it out it’s truly a sigh of relief .I am non-partisan but I really know this has God’s hand in it- especially the timing. It’s come at a time when people had just about given up hope. We were at a point where most people were now involved in shady deals just to get thru the day and not many cared to help. Help or whatever form of assistance had a price tag attached if you even got to that stage.
There’s a lot of promise- and one member to the agreement even committed the deal to God’s hands. For me it’s not so much if he meant it but just the remembrance and the hope it can rekindle in someone who’s listening means a lot to me and know it even can be the starting point for a conversation with God for someone who’d ditched such a relationship.
Breakthroughs happen every day. I had one yesterday and at work there’s been one as well. It’s not the best deal there can be, but at least it’s something almost decent. Yeah, that sort of stuff where diction just cannot help you say yes coz you just cannot.
Thanks be to the Lord for when His people look for him in earnest, He will answer.
“though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.”

I love this quote from Psalms, “For this shall every one that is godly pray unto thee in a time when thou mayest be found: surely in the floods of great waters they shall not come nigh unto him.” 32v6.

For someone looking from outside they felt for us. They were sure this was just the ultimate trial and they just did not understand how we could still get thru the day. Many still call us docile becoz we did not go on the streets and make nois
My friends, the battle has just begun coz we have just dislodged one of the enemy’s stronghold on our population. Many were at the end of their rope and about to give up but…….halleluiah!!!!!! We smile once again as a nation;))e for change. (have you not heard………blessed are the meek?)
The few who chose to quietly go down on their knees and make petitions for the country are today giving thanks for surely we all would have perished were it not that His ear hears the voice of each of His children. Maybe someone will say I’m of that view becoz I had food on my table everyday. That may have been so but I still came across those in position less than me and I had to help. That’s how I know the point we were now at. That’s how I know what we were praying for. That’s how I know the kind of petitions the Lord had coming His way on a daily basis from my fellow Zimbabweans. I smile becoz we did not get to the point where someone would know that we were not seeking God’s help. The storm from outside seemed like it was so strong there was no way we could commune with Him with such challenges daily. But His grace is so much that we still knelt in prayer and petitioned Him for relief. This month something’s indeed afoot in the heavenlies. The battle still rages on a daily basis, but September 2008 is different for Zimbabwe. Maybe our timing was such that we’d focus on prayer this month and then see the fruit afterwards.
But God has His timing. A few of His children could not wait until then, a select few had petitioned and their fruits are now being seen by all. My prayer right now is that we do not go back on our plan to continually seek Him as a nation as relief is now on the horizon.

My friends, the battle has just begun coz we have just dislodged one of the enemy’s stronghold on our population. Many were at the end of their rope and about to give up but…….halleluiah!!!!!!
We smile once again as a nation;))

The quote thing

Seems I’m on a roll as regards looking at quotations. I like this one. “Anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows, but only empties today of its strength.” - Charles H. Spurgeon
I had a bad headache yesterday and had to retire early. After lying down a bit I was fine. I was being anxious about what I saw as inevitable. Even after seeing a possible way out I just didn’t accept it straight away. After mulling over all that’d been said during the day and what was on offer I saw that I was wasting time by worrying. It never makes even a hair grow.
So now I’m my sunny self again. I knew I was back on track as I admired the beautiful morning as I breathed the fresh morning air as I waited for a ride to work.
Life is till lovely despite anxieties we insist on calling ours.
There indeed is so much strength in today as we let go of what we don't know and put it in God's hands.

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann 1927

Teary smile

At least I’ll remember that I smiled in the morning
A mountainwings joke did it
Call it fear, I call it fear
A year ago I was in tears inconsolable
A year after I’m at that point once again
At least this time it’s not over the same issue
This time it’s about an issue I’ve given up on
I’m just not made to exert myself on such
Call it regressive and I’m bound to agree
I’m moving back home
I’ve been away for just 3 months and I’m tired
I’m going back to my mum’s
Explaining it brings tears to my eyes
I guess it’s one of those things one cannot explain
I don’t even want to ask why
I sort of know why
It’s that part of life one has to go thru to prepare them for something else
I’m still wondering WHAT
Like I said, I’m tired
I’m exhausted
At least today I smiled.

My hair

Things do change-unexpectedly
I’d planned to get my hair done by my usual hair dresser back at home
So I took time off work and made the call for an appointment
She’s gone!
I knew she’d eventually go but I never thought it’d be this soon
Anyway my dilemma was now what do I do?
I had to get my hair braided
I needed someone I could trust to do it perfectly
She’s the only one I knew
I need to see someone’s work before they touch my hair
I love my hair
So I make the dreaded search for a hairdresser over the phone
My sister was a great help
She recalled seeing perfect braids and asked who’d done them
It was guys!
I’ve got this thing about male hairdressers
I just hope they’re straight
Honest, that’s the first thing that comes to mind when it’s men and women’s hair
Call it a prejudice, it’s the truth
Anyway I had to have my hair done and I did ask the question
Well, I hinted…….
Needless to say, I was laughed at
It’s not meant to be my issue their sexual orientation, so they said
It has to be coz I see myself as accepting such traits
It’s one of those things I won’t delve into but I say it’s just wrong
So I meet one of the guys and ask if they can do what I want and the charge
To my relief, the four minute conversation says he’s straight
So, I got my hair done by two brothers whom I’m glad to say are 100% straight and know how to braid
It’s one of those things that I find myself in and hope I’ll still be able to control coz I like controlling such things
After all, it’s my hair and my look.

The colour of mud

Right now I really want to rant and rave
But, about what?
LIFE!!!!!!!!
It’s just a muddle
I do not like the colour of the puddle right now coz I cannot name the colour
If I could just name the colour then I’d know what’s up under the water
I’d know what’s fallen into my puddle to make such a muddle
I’d know what colour to expect next
I’d know if I need more effort to diffuse this puddle or let it be
This puddle matters coz it’s the biggest in the muddle
It sort of controls the other puddles
Call it the mother puddle
It started it all and now it’s the centre of attention
OH!
I’m now hunting for a colour encyclopaedia
I trust it’s been seen before
I hope it’s not a transition colour unnoticed by human eyes before

Tight boots

This is quite a familiar phrase
Someone else’s shoes
Apparently everyone has a pair of shoes they’re putting on
There seems to always be a dilemma when one tries to imagine themselves in the other person’s shoes
What if my shoes are too tight?
What if I don’t like my shoes?
Where can I get an exchange?
Right now I feel I’m wearing tight little boots
I’m thinking of carrying on barefoot- I just wish there was soft grass everywhere for me to walk on
Just the feel of that soft grass carpet
Oh! Such comfort
I really need to put off these shoes and put on a new pair
By the way……I don’t want to wear anyone else’s shoes
I’m just after a new unworn pair that fits otherwise I’m going barefoot.

I'm tired

I’m tired of trying to make ends meet
It’s something I never put effort on before
Nowadays I’m doing what I didn’t envision myself doing 4 months ago
How will I get to work tomorrow?
It’s inevitable –almost, sort of
It’s the country I live in
What I’m contending with is the amount of energy I put in getting to the end of the week
Right now we’ve got enough inflation to go round the whole population each getting 1%
I really wish things would get back to normal
The old days wish from a modern day ancient called me
I want to ask the guy with the cart how much bananas are so that I know how many I can get and not so that I decide if I should buy
I want to be able to stop the ice-cream cart and buy an ice lolly coz it’s hot
I want to be able to buy meat for the whole month in one go
I want to be able to spoil myself and my friends when I get paid
I don’t want to budget when I think of buying a friend a birthday gift
I want to be able to buy fresh bread off the shelf and not some street corner
I want to drive to my nephew’s school with top up tuck and cheers from the family
I want to go to the bank just twice a month and swipe the whole month thru
I want to drive out of town and visit a place I’ve never been before
I want to plan a holiday outing for myself and friends
I want…………….
I want to smile when I se bank notes in my jacket pocket before I send it to the cleaners’
Actually, I want to send my jackets to the cleaners more often
So many wants
What do I need?
I need to go to the bank and get bus fare for tomorrow
So out of my reverie and tracks to the bank

Desires

So I took this leap of faith just over a month ago
I said to myself, 'I've got nothing to loose'
True dat, but it’s just infuriating the time and energy expended
So I lost something?
Energy cannot be lost it can only be transmitted….that jazz means the other party gained something at my cost…..whatever
Yeah, whatever
And will I keep on leaping?
I think so.
Was impressed whilst reading Daniel and he’s thrice described as greatly beloved
And my centre references say this means a man of desires
Cross checked and some translations just say it as a man of desires
The fascination is with what it means
He’s the one person who was described as after God’s own heart
Imagine that!
It’s not an excuse for me to hide behind but I know deep down what I feel is true
There is no way I cannot love
I grew up to know love and be able to share love
we were created that way
For me, it's unstoppable
Don't get me wrong, I don't love recklessly
It’s one of those things I cannot stop myself from doing
I care…..
I love……..
I hurt…..
I still love.

Changes

Once again I change my mind
This time it's situational
Right now I feel as if I'm throwing in the towel
But I know if I take this road things will change for the better
I know a lot of people will see it as retrogressive coz what they see will lead them to conclude such
If they need to know why, then they just need to ask me
i know it will be for the better
My timing just has to be perfect
I'm praying on that
I'm taking a step forward
I've been at this spot for so long, I'm almost a unnoticeable
It's a big change
Pray for me also.

Mediocre? NOT!

I'm a millionaire!
Yep, hit the mark once again despite debasing of our currency by a billion a month ago
I just had to give a shout out for that
I thank the Lord for helping me get there especially seeing as I haven't been trading in a long time
His wisdom always guides me and gives me the nudge when I go astray

This has been basically a horrible week
I've been doing a lot of running around
I've been doing some soul searching and I had to make some rather brash decisions now that I look at it
But I had to coz I just couldn't stay in limbo
It’s this thing I’ve got with being in suspense
What I need to know is a simple YES or NO
The maybe’s I don’t deal with so well
Especially when it comes to decisions concerning my life
So in such cases I treat them as no’s
It may have been very rash but it’s been affecting what I aspire for in life and it just had to be answered
Will be doing something I’ve tried for the past two weeks for the last time this weekend
I cannot just disappear so I’m going to say good bye
It was one of those things you do as a trial version and you hope the reason will hold and stick in the years to come

Suffice to say it won't be expected but I'm going to do it anyway
And my try’s going to be over in a day
‘Twas something I’ll sit and talk about one day as I reminisce about this life
Ah, the bliss of memory.

New Homes

Yesterday was a terrible work day. It had many let downs. It also had many revelations. There are many things I push aside becoz I don’t want to focus on them right now. Yesterday they just came to the fore and I had to deal with them. I’m glad they did. I know I’m dealing with that laziness streak.
Now my family’s growing up. I moved out in June, my brother yesterday and my sister’s moving out on Friday. I guess I never imagined that this is how it’d happen. I only pictured us visiting each other at our separate homes but I never conjured how that’d come about. The most I did was just to accept that somehow people would move out on their own. Maybe becoz we’re not a typical example of a Zimbabwean family that’s why the moves had to happen the way they did and with such timings. My prayer right now is that the binds will grow stronger despite the proximity of each of us to the next sibling. That did happen in my case and I pray that the same now happens for all of us. We used to joke and laugh about what each of the home’s would be like and the kind of hospitality offered. Now pudding’s done and the taste will be in the eating. I’ll almost bet on this one- exotic flavour!

Words in the wind

All this stuff
All these thoughts
Why do I have to let all this out
Why can't I just keep quiet
Why should I always have an opinion
Why should I always say the truth
Do I need to always be honest
Why write at all
Why take note of it all
Why debate
Why converse

If I were to answer then this post'd be pointless

I guess that's what we sometimes ask when we think of what's been said
Yes, we can try to take back the words
Yes, we can retract the statements
But the truth of the matter is that words go with the wind
Who can catch the wind, let alone chase it
The pursuit will never end
So when we do say something
Let's remember that the wind carries those words and taking them back is mission impossible

Searched out

I’ve been there
Done that
Thought that
Seen that
Heard that
Read that
Said that
Wished that

So I ask why am I still being searched out?
Honestly,
WHY??????????????????

Life? or Issues

So I’m lying back when I should be screaming
Not again?!!!?!?!!?!

When things seem to go pleasantly along with my thoughts and expectations
They just have a way of disobeying logic just for the sake of nudging me a bit
Well, so it seems with my life.
I seldom plan things
I hope for things to happen
I sometimes make things happen
But to honestly chart my course…..
That I’ve left for my Creator
Seriously, I gave up on that one long back
So my life is full of risks when you look from some vantage point
Do I see them as risks?
I see them as consequences of not having a plan
What it could boil down to is fear
Fear of failure
So I’d rather not plan?
Nah! It’s just a nice mess, my life
Messy coz it’s as clear as mud
But very simple at that
Not demanding
But having standards
VERY risky when it comes to relationships
I’ve decided that’s how to live my life to the full
Love all I can
I’m a giver and what I know I can always give abundantly is love
And so I risk all and continue starting friendships with all sorts of people in all sorts of ways praying that my life will impact them in some way
I’m glad that a few have testified that I changed their perspective on life or the way to navigate around life
It’s the calmness I approach life with that interests them, so they say
Honestly speaking, I just do not have that many cares in life
The biggest care I’ve got, next to my relationship with God, is my family
That I can fuss about
That I can loose sleep over
Anything else?
NOTHING
Things like friends, relationships, society, work, education, achievements all vie for a place amongst the two or want to be a third, but I decided long back those are the only two things worth my sleep
And so most days I rest easy.

There’s a storm outside my window but it’s not my job to worry about it
I actually saw it brewing before I went to bed but still abed I went
When I should arise that’s when I’ll look for whatever’s applicable for the kinda weather then
For now……..I sleep.

Life?

I walk thru life
I stumble across life
I fumble thru life
I waltz thru life

Yeah life.

Reciprocation

I have a bone of contention with friendship in general
I know I gotta be specific
But right now it’s just not on what’s up with some of these 'friends'
Imagine how many people we call friends
Yet deep down we know they’re just acquaintances
Worse, how many call us their friends
and wish they'd see we're just acquaintances
And we don’t requite their friendship

It’s just not on
It’s not on
It’s all mixed up
At one time I feel cheated and another I’m the one cheating my friends
Relationships need work
All kinds of relationship, really
Once you’re acquainted with someone
The natural thing is to keep the tie
And things grow on this tie
And what do u know?
You just let them carry on growing
The next thing is that u wish you’d pruned all that stuff on that tie
It’s grown so much the bond is very much noticeable it’s undeniable

I need to cut some of these ties
They’re not worth the attention they get
They’re just burdensome for nothing
Maybe to someone I’m also such a branch
I pray they’ll cut me off sometime soon as well
It’s just taxing keeping all those contacts knowing you won’t contact them at all
They’ll only contact you when they want something from you
The ones I’ll keep are the one who check up on me
Just checking up to see how I’m doing
Such are the stuff of true friendship coz they miss u at some time
U also miss them sometime & just call to say ‘hi!’
When they ask for something u know they can do that for u also multiplied coz they care
The word why never comes up when u’re doing whatever for them
It’s just as good as doing it for urself
That’s when I know I’m doing it for friendship
When I feel obligated
I always look at the stuff on that line
Right now I’m reviewing a lot of those branches

Change is the only constant

I've got to agree to this maxim
I'm one to call myself flexible within limits
This time I seem to be stretching myself quite a bit
But surprisingly I believe I'm riding the current very well

This year the changes I've gone thru have been quite numerous
And significant for boring old me
I moved out on my own (almost on my own)
I started a relationship
I've just changed church denomination
I call myself an avid blogger

When you go thru the list of things that can stress one quite a lot
You'll understand why these are quite marked in my life
I'm enjoying the ride
It's exhilarating, it's scary at times, it's intriguing
But on the whole it's worth the while.

And so I win

Never thought it'd be that simple really
But is was
I think next I'll read SunTzu's book
I'm sure it'll just confirm that I've been on the right track in this warfare
Right now I'm reading would u believe it- Pride and Prejudice
I had a blast yesterday when I was on the chapter concerning an affair of marriage proposals and courtship
Donno if Jane intended it to be funny but such is life at times and these people do exist in the flesh
Pity that at times you cannot be in stitches when the person's showing their colours coz u honestly feel for them
Honest
I'm serious on this one
Instead of just letting them go on living life that messed up you do try to show them the light
But, alas!
They're the man
And so life is as beautiful and lovely and as fun as a sharing a joke with a friend

Someone's gotta feel for these guys in the flesh
Talk about blinkers and displaying ego at the same time
You gotta read some of the stuff I read and meet some of the people I know
The blast is if I were to tell you some of the incidents I've come across
Ah!! What a life!!!!!!

Twisted

Ever felt some people’s behaviour and whims are just those of the devil?
Worse, you feel they’re the devil incarnate.
It gives me the shivers that somehow I’ve met the devil….incarnate.
Yes, we all have perceptions of people we have fantasies
But putting some of that into practice is just plain wrong
Some of the fantasies are just plain evil
Right now I’m really wondering…..
How now brown cow?
It’s just repugnant how some people I’ve come across behave
And they carry on in spite of it being noted
No parables
You give it to them in their face and still
They choose to remain twisted
And want you to know just how twisted they are
I guess the way to win this one is just to keep mum at times
They’ll tire one day
One day, one fine day, they’ll call it quits.
I still pray for such
For He still loves them
Still.

Umm oh!!!

I really could go down with this attitude!
Oh can I?
Actually, NO, I got it all coverd by the guy upstairs
And I read and understand.

Seriously, people just never give up.
EGO
And it has to be a man
Fellas, I have nothing against you
Honest truth
But I'm sure u'll appreciate a situation at work where the boss' male and I'm the female
Worse- same age - months' difference
They feel insecure
They feel challenged
And if they're professional would they be in such a situation?
I'll let you decide.

Hands washed,
Hands clean.

Haters

Name calling is cowardly in my view
People are calling my people names
Just becoz they're from down here
Yeah, things are messed up but that
doesn't warrant calling a nation by nasty names
Just becoz we act rationally and you don't understand us
Doesn't mean we need a name
FYI we are rational and very sane at that
Call it pride
I call it a gift
We're not a violent nation
Yeah we could all take to the streets
And start a war
But what would that change
We respect each other
No matter what happens
We don't just kill for the sake of survival
We don't just kill just becoz someone is wrong
We don't just shout for attention
We act rationally
What makes sense to us won't make sense to you
You've never been in our shoes
Don't judge each of us by what happens to the country
Don't judge the nation becoz of one person
There is a reason for all of this
Look around you and see how many Zimbos are next to you
We love life to the extent of preserving it
Not destroying it hoping for better for the next guy
We believe in better for us
We are very much adaptable
In fact I can almost bet we're the only ones who can surive anywhere on erath
Coz we've got that ingenuity
We ask, so what next
So what will happen if I do this?
Will it benefit me for long term?
Will my childeren be happy about the decison I take today?
Does it make sense?
We never ask 'what will the next person say?'
Or ' what will they think about me?'
Call us selfish or self centered
But we'll be around for a longer time than most of these haters
We're survivers
We're a chosen people

We're just that little notch above the avarage person
Don't hate us for that.

Over the edge/wedge/verge/age......??!!??

Risk

I think ‘twas during study that I really got to think about risk
To win big you’ve gotta risk big...
Punt less and the odds for you are that much less...
OR IS IT?

Relativity comes into play for someone’s who lives life on the edge
That adrenalin rush is actually is a signal that they’re alive
It’s not a rush
It’s their pulse
They’ve laid aside the measure
They have jack idea how much is at stake
They have a pretty idea what’s there for the taking
So soldier on is what they do

It’s second nature you may say
It came naturally
We’re not all born with that need for a rush all the time
A rush’s gotta be once in a while
They’ll soon wear out
Have they?
Look when they started
Look where they’re now at

Life on the edge
The edge of the world?
The edge of life?
That edge
Live life on the edge
That way you’ll be all over the globe
There’s no way you’ll fall off the globe
The least that’ll happen is you’ll discover there’s more on the other side

Oh, really??

I surprise myself at times
Actually I'm doing that quite a lot nowadays
I just write , write, write.......
Seems I have a lotta time on my hands
Odd?
Not really, but when u look where m at, it is odd
I'm meant to be doing things to make ends meet
Coz I'm a Zimbo life's meant to be tough
Actually for me it's a bit depressing thinking about such stuff
I live and let live
I don't expect much or demand much
BUT I still have a standard
That standard is very simple actually
Smile
All else will fall into place
It's gotta
Coz with a smile in Zim
Someone will ask you wat's up whether they intended to or not
It's a bit unusual for a smile to just crop up
You've gotta be happy about something to be able to smile let alone laugh
NO!!!!!!!!!!
It's not that depressing down here
Just that smiles get fewer the more you think about that next dollar
So when you smile you get an opportunity to offload on someone
If not, then for a moment your focus isn't on that puzzle
But just enjoying that relaxation of face and mind

Smile- the sun's still up!

Spice it Up!

A touch
A glimpse
A thought
A smile
A laugh
A moment
A gesture

Reflection on these has warmth to it
Though just a moment
A lifetime may be changed
Though a just a smile
A soul may once again hope
Tough just a laugh
The clouds may just all disappear
Though just a glimpse
Faith may still find a place to stay
Though just a touch
A heart may once again love
Obviously it will never be JUST a getsure

So….
Just smile!
You may end up laughing....in the end conversing

Intrepid Trepidation

These two words were bothering me last night.

Trepidation:
Bold
Fearless
Brave
Courageous
Daring
Heroic
Audacious

Intrepid:
Fear
Anxiety
Unease
Nervousness
Apprehension
Consternation
Concern

Conquering uncharted frontiers
Actually for me it’s frontiers I have not charted, ever
And I wouldn’t say it’s conquering
Discovering is more like it
I lay awake for some time

I’m not good with receiving
I get intensely overwhelmed
I have to do something back
I feel indebted
I’m better with giving

I never give to get something back
I give to show I care
I give to help out
I give because that I can do, without much effort, mostly
I’m no philanthropist, though

Now I’m at a point where all I can give back is love
You may say that’s enough
But that I can give effortlessly as well
In most cases, save this one - strangely
Yes, I still can give it, and then those words come in

I’ve been bestowed with so much
“To whom much is given”
I fall in that category, actually, we all do
Somehow this receipt is an overflow
My cup overflows.

I receive.

Comment

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I surprise myself at times
I try a lot to control my emotions and seems last post I didn't do it so well
I failed, I think

The emotional bit
Somehow I accepted that some time back
But now when I look at it
Maybe I'm not emotional
I may be very extraverted in the quiet confusing sort of way

Last post I was looking at life from one viewpoint
An acute angle if i may say so myself

Ah well,
C'est moi....

Donno
But I still do cry.

Now

Life's a roller coaster

Life's throwing me lemons & I'm making lemonade.

Serve the LORD with fear, and rejoice with trembling.

Was getting a bit muddled up blogging not what I wanted and calling it the wrong names
Still I won’t recall/retract the posts
I’ll let those thoughts be
Shows I’m normal after all

This is the real deal going on
Bumped into this chap by someone else’s making
So I didn’t bump into him
U think?
Actually, I did
Sort of knocked him down and here I am apologising
But still, I’m not convinced it’s all becoz of me
The fall, that is

Expliquer…….
Here goes

I’m scared to go deep into a lot of things
Except for one thing
The Bible
This could be due to what I know
What I don’t know
What I like
Right & wrong
Pain
Loss

In the Bible I cannot lose ANYTHING
Maybe that’s why this fella’s putting up such a fight
I fight with this fella most of the times
Sometimes directly or he sends his minions
All the same I fight with him much
It’s all becoz he cannot and won’t be my friend unless he changes
Donno about him changing coz apparently he was like that from the beginning
From the very beginning
Before Adam and Eve
I’m sure now u know this guy I’m talking about

So how did this current battle get so intense to deserve a post?
It’s just made me that stronger
And it was being me mad about what was being said of Him
We all need to be careful when we start pointing fingers
More so when we point them at Our Maker

The words ‘fear the Lord’
Those words
Many people take them loosely
So loosely they start challenging Him

Have they not read that His ways are not ours
Nor our thoughts His
No one has risen to Job’s question
‘Who can hinder Him?’
Who can search his mind?
Who knows His will?

I remember coming across this title
The Great Controversy
The title’s catchy
I wanted to read it some time
Little did I know that’d be the starting point of my battle
I’m not scared to say the truth
I’m trusting Him
I’ve got everything to lose but I’ve got everything to gain
The condition
I must loose all
I’m ready

Sin is nature
It’s a decision
Nonetheless, only those He calls can have a relationship with Him
Judgement
We do it a lot
If not daily
It has it’s repercussions
There’s the accuser o the brethren
Now he’s making some people accuse their Maker

Yes, He made things the way they are
Even sin
Just becoz there’s sin and suffering shouldn’t then mean He’s at fault
Who are you to critique His design?
Worse u don’t even know the whole picture
Let alone appreciate the intricacy of the design
We do not see the full design yet we’ve concluded
We’re right
He’s wrong
But He loves us still?
COME ON!!!!!

Contradicting self just so that we remain right?
Right in the world’s sight
Since when should Christians be measured by the world’s standard
What happened to all this stuff-
I’m not of this world?
We live in the world but are not of the world
I’m a new creation

Let’s be real for once
How can we struggle to please two kings and call ourselves Christian?
I may sound judgemental but this is fact
Self is a king
Ask Paul
He struggled with his self
He was at war
CONSTANTLY
BUT
He knew in whom he had put his trust
He knew there was a prize at the end of it all
He knew the conditions of winning
He didn’t pretend he understood
He knew the whole deal
Maybe, just maybe, we don’t know the whole deal

Then if we don’t
Here’s what we should do
Go back to the basics
Don’t just adopt for the sake of having an identity
There’s just one identity we should be concerned about
Our face in Christ

It’s no wonder there’s a denomination with Bible believers in their name
We stand to loose everything for no reason
Gaining the world ain’t what we were made for
It is but a short stay here and He’s made it worth the while
Pray on your eyes of the spirit to be opened
Take the time to read Job, James, Romans and Revelation
They’re no that long and with prayer
You will get the sort of discernment that’s got me into this battle
It’s exhilarating the knowledge you will gain
Try it.
I’m hooked!

The Lord “Wilt thou also disannul my judgment? wilt thou condemn me, that thou mayest be righteous?”
Job: Truly is not my help in me? For he is not a man, as I am, that I should answer him, and we should come together in judgment. Neither is there any daysman betwixt us, that might lay his hand upon us both.

Awesome!!

Here's the deal
Was thinking of changing my blog title
Could have been somehow I thought it sounded like a complaint
Then today I remember why I called it such
I won't change it

It's about my life
What I come across
What I feel
What I know
My opinion
My feelings
My notebook

My life story is amazing to me
I've got so much to share
There's so much life in my life
I've got life in abundance!!!

The tree of knowledge.....my next stop.

Perception

Unless I tell you
You remain with your view
Unless I explain
You believe it true

Unless you ask
Don't conclude

Perception
Virtual
Real
Opinion

Ponder over these
Always ask

Things don't always go the way they've always gone

30!!! and loving it

So I turned 30 today
Yep
Silently did so
I have grown and I love the way I’ve grown
I’m giving a shout out of praise
I wouldn’t have made it this far alone
The mystery of life slowly unfolds
I’m following closely and learning

I still have my fighting spirit
I still have this life
I still have knowledge
I won’t look for the fountain of youth
I’ve found the fountain of wisdom

IT”S ADVENTURE!!!

Adventure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That just about sums up my life.
Last posted a day before I went on study leave
That was 8 days from moving out on my own-technically
And a lot has happened.

I will tell what I can recall
I finally moved out on 11/06
Things then seemed very difficult
I almost went back home
My view is sometimes that much blinkered
I was depressed to some extent and I lost it when someone laughed at what I thought was my predicament
I guess those tears helped a lot coz I was on the sunny side the day after
I’m still on that sunny side.
The blinkers?
Gone!

I really don’t know what got a grip of me
False hopes and wrong expectations I figure
N way I’m back on top of my mountain and believe it or not
There’s no going down
Up is where I belong
I’ve got friends in high places and when I do cry out they kneel for me
I also do the same for them
We’re staying up here!!!!

The adventure?
I’ve never been away from home for more than a month out on my own
The longest was 3 weeks to swot for exams
I said ‘no thank you,’ to boarding school when I got the offer
Back then, I was scared somehow –the blending thing
I got over that, and what do u know…..
I’m a trend setter in some circles
That I also didn’t know until a while ago
I’m still growing and learning
Yeah, learning never ceases for as long as u’re breathing
Only if you allow it.

Malleable
A word I used to describe myself yesterday
Somehow I got a bit scared when I thought it through
Flexible is what I’ve always thought myself to be
But malleable?
Yes
That’s the only way the Creator can mould me into the vessel I should be
Digressing a bit.
Ok I’ll post separately n make more sense

I’ve just embarked on a very personal adventure
I hope to be writing of in good light in the near future
Personal indeed but I’ll blog about it anyway
Next post……..I almost went back home
My view is sometimes that much blinkered
I was depressed to some extent and I lost it when someone laughed at what I thought was my predicament
I guess those tears helped a lot coz I was on the sunny side the day after
I’m still on that sunny side.
The blinkers?
Gone!

I really don’t know what got a grip of me
False hopes and wrong expectations I figure
N way I’m back on top of my mountain and believe it or not
There’s no going down
Up is where I belong
I’ve got friends in high places and when I do cry out they kneel for me
I also do the same for them
We’re staying up here!!!!

The adventure?
I’ve never been away from home for more than a month out on my own
The longest was 3 weeks to swot for exams
I said ‘no thank you,’ to boarding school when I got the offer
Back then, I was scared somehow –the blending thing
I got over that, and what do u know…..
I’m a trend setter in some circles
That I also didn’t know until a while ago
I’m still growing and learning
Yeah, learning never ceases for as long as u’re breathing
Only if you allow it.

Malleable
A word I used to describe myself yesterday
Somehow I got a bit scared when I thought it through
Flexible is what I’ve always thought myself to be
But malleable?
Yes
That’s the only way the Creator can mould me into the vessel I should be
Digressing a bit.
Ok I’ll post separately n make more sense

I’ve just embarked on a very personal adventure
I hope to be writing of in good light in the near future
Personal indeed but I’ll blog about it anyway
Next post……..

The wood for the trees........

Ok, I’m not one to mourn and wallow in self pity
But this time PLEASE pity me
LOL!

Attention seeker?............. NAH!

I just don’t like the way I sometimes end up NOT on top of my mountain of joy BUT deep in the woods wondering if I’m gonna see my beautiful mountain again.
I’m usually on the top of things, like now
Not yesterday and the day before
I broke down
I thought I’d reached my breaking point
Now I know I’d just gone on that walk in the woods

What’s not pleasing right now is that I can see a cloud fast approaching my mountain
Yeah, it may pass
But my mountain doesn’t need the shade
It’s always bright and sunny
I’m praying the winds of change will redirect that cloud
Better still, my fire will vapour it out

I seem not be getting to the crux of the matter?
The crux is that I’m now OK
I’ve got to avoid going down my mountain into the woods
Who knows? I may lose myself down there and become one of THEM!
The lost, the depressed ones, the ones with no hope

NO, NO, NO!!!!!!!!

I’m not saying there’s something wrong with them
There’s just something wrong about them
Their environ isn’t one you can smile in
I’m used to fishing them outta that wood
Now if I’m down there with them
WHO will fish them out? What about me?

I can climb up my mountain and stay there
They still need to know that such a mountain exists for them

You got that right
I’m a fisher of Man.

It might sound a bit twisted but believe me
All fishers face that challenge and some have become lost in the woods.

Risk averse?

I'll risk a verse.
Not now but some time later when I feel that way again
My soul's still ok just that the mind is at war.

I did something someone may consider out of character.
Actually it’s expected of me
No I’m not losing it
I do speak for the voiceless at times.
I take risks
I just did that

I may have everything to lose
But then again what do I have to lose?
I don’t have much but I have everything
What I have cannot be lost
I can only give it away
I don’t see myself giving it away anytime soon
Sometimes one cannot just look the other way and just carry on
The next person is your business
Yes, you’re your brother’s keeper

I will not retract what I said today
I even wrote some of it down
Some wars have to be fought today by me
I may forget and I will be accountable

These wars have to be fought some time
Someone’s got to do it
It’s not always me
Today it had to be me
I don’t feel afraid
There’s no precedent in this case
I’m setting the pace
Some things just cannot be left to just go on without challenge
I have spoken for the voiceless
Someone has to take stock of what they’re doing

A dog's day

What's with the net? Almost thought I'd lost. Nways to 2day's story.
There've been a number of times I've said a dog always has it's day and I think that day is about to be upon us.......soon though.
Typical Zimbo right?
I can't help it. We're born with loads of this stuff called hope and we thrive on it.

Today of all days intervention came from the source one would least expect.
Who would have thought the authorities would get something right and for the good of us, the worker.

My point is that when one prays for intervention it’s almost a given that the format of what intervention will be in ur head.
There’s that someone you expect will come through, that stuff that’ll just give, that person that’ll just change. It’s all pre-arranged somehow.

I just have to give a shout of praise coz this never was even one of those possibilities in my small backward world.

My eyes have just been opened wider and I’m loving it!
intervention by God will come via nay of the arenas in His control
i.e. ANYTHING'S POSSIBLE!!

Indeed He is an AWESOME GOD.

Expectations?

I had a rough idea of what to expect and how things would run. Far from my expectations is what took place.

So we had gone to look for food- so says my Shona custom. We went to pay the bride price for my younger brother’s girlfiend-soon-to-be-wife and we came back with small change.

What was required of us was huge in my sight. What follows is strictly my opinion.

They wanted 16 cows.

Yep, 16. We didn’t even commit any offence to warrant them asking for that many cows. Maybe we overdressed or they just wanted a lot of money apiece since there were so many of them.

The result?
There’s now tension over finances which never existed when these two were still girlfriend and boyfriend. Maybe they should have just continued being that. No wonder many people elope and after that the bride price is seldom high unless some mishap happens to the wife before payment of anything.

They want 5 live cows.
We’ve got none in our non-existent kraal. We’ll look for them anyhow. I guess that’s the price you pay for loving someone and wanting them to stay with you for the rest of your life.

Maturity plays a part when you start thinking of this new bond that’s being formed. It’s not like we just went back to our house and they had a party after we left and we cried and will forget about it. The husband and wife’s finances are going to be dry for sometime when they are meant to be enjoying staying together. And when they have issues they want the mukuwasha to help out with- who’s to blame when he says he’s till saving for the 5 cows?

My bone? None. Just had to vent it out before the muroora comes and be the one to cool off the rest of the crew whilst we await her joining our family for good.

The other side of this? My brothers want revenge on my bride price.
What?!!!
They think they can do the same when some guy wants to take me to his house.

They have a long wait coz there’s no guy wanting to take me out for lunch right now so the home bit will take much longer than they think. MUCH longer.Expectations?

I had a rough idea of what to expect and how things would run. Far from my expectations is what took place.

So we had gone to look for food- so says my Shona custom. We went to pay the bride price for my younger brother’s wife and we came back with small change.
What was required of us was huge in my sight. What follows is strictly my opinion. They wanted 16 cows.

Yep. We didn’t even commit any offence to warrant them asking for that many cows. Maybe we overdressed or they just wanted a lot of money apiece since there were so many of them.

The result?
There’s now tension over finances which never existed when these two were still girlfriend and boyfriend. Maybe they should have just continued being that. No wonder many people elope and after that the bride price is seldom high unless some mishap happens to the wife before payment of anything.

They want 5 live cows.
We’ve got none in our non-existent kraal. We’ll look for them anyhow. I guess that’s the price you pay for loving someone and wanting them to stay with you for the rest of your life.

Maturity plays a part when you start thinking of this new bond that’s being formed. It’s not like we just went back to our house and they had a party after we left and we cried and will forget about it. The husband and wife’s finances are going to be dry for sometime when they are meant to be enjoying staying together. And when they have issues they want the mukuwasha to help out with- who’s to blame when he says he’s till saving for the 5 cows?

My bone? None. Just had to vent it out before the muroora comes and be the one to cool off the rest of the crew whilst we await her joining our family for good.

The other side of this? My brothers want revenge on my bride price.
What?!!!
They think they can do the same when some guy wants to take me to his house.

They have a long wait coz there’s no guy wanting to take me out for lunch right now so the home bit will take much longer than they think. MUCH longer.

Chills, shiver ,I KNOW

There are times when I get the chills about life
Serious , I sometimes do.
It’s strange how at times someone’s life mirrors yours
Or how someone’s opinion is just like yours
Sometimes I think I’m being paranoid
How can what’s happening in some person’s life be what’s happening in yours
When you start talking about the sad stuff in your life
They start finishing your sentences and you know where they’re heading
It’s like the two of you share the same sad life

Then other stuff happens and you think someone’s the cause of that
Then sometime later you get to know YES! it was them
It’s a cruel circle, this life, I sometimes think
It’s just not right that I can get into your life and know what’s happening without you saying
And vice versa

Could it be becoz of the sad situations?
Maybe the writer of all these sad situations just doesn’t have that much creativity and they just keep on repeating the same old scenes
Must be!
Otherwise how come I have solutions to situations I’ve never been in and someone else knows what’s the matter with my life

Ever had situations when someone just hits the spot that’s bothering you without you telling them
They just seem to know
They’re not even that close to you, yet the sense something’s amiss
It gives me the shivers sometimes
How can I just know all that stuff?
Chilling
What I DO know is that the multiplicity of good situations has never ending permutations
And the silly person responsible for bad things isn’t creative
SO expect the unexpected in life and when u’re down and think u’re out
Someone has the answer even though they’ve never been there
Trust me here. I KNOW.

A nice mess

I’m on a roll, so it seems.
Could be due to absence from my pet loves.
N way on I’ll forge.

It’s a nice mess I’m going thru
Nice coz it’s not bad but it’s still a mess
It’ll get sorted one by one as I decide what to prioritise
Just made a count and it’s 48days till I turn thirty.
!!!!!!!
Yes, I actually remember 52 days ago when I realised from outta nowhwer that it wa s100 days till 30.
I’ve grown
I actually love that.
It may not be what I’d have chosen were life picked off the counter, but given a chance to go back……..I wouldn’t
It’s OK as it is.
A nice mess.
A nice , rubbish, confusing, intriguing, loveable MESS
Thru messes I’ve grown and I’m loving it
Yeah at times I’m down but not out
Stopped that a long time ago
I’m no longer after exhilarating fun
Just simple fun
I’m OK with little
I’m great with a lot
I’ve got everything I need right now
Debateable
Not with youJ
Crazy I sound, crazy I may be, BUT crazy you’d never suspect.
I don’t let on much yet I’m so open with a lot.
Paradoxical?
No, that’s ME.
A cute mess.

WE will get there

Well what goes around does come around, I still stand by that.
Been doing a lot of reminiscing and thinking and brooding
and the result?
I'm now a bit despondent about life.
Honestly how can things just turn to be the way they are?
One day you're smiling and the next you're meant to be crying.
You just don't let the tears come out coz u're used to putting up a front
It's now almost permanent armour
I know , I know
Life's not all that bad.
I don't agree.
It's not that bad coz it ain't bad AT ALL
It's people
We use each other
We abuse each other
We love each other
We hate each other
We need each other
We're all out to survive
Survival instinct?
NO!
It' just plain meanness
We're not born mean, unloving, unkind, cunning
We develop
We want to survive so we say
We want to be on top of things always
REALLY?
NO!
WE'VE DECIDED WHAT WE WANT TO BE, HOW WE WANT TO BE ALWAYS
The halfway point?
Nope.
WE've decided
It's all because of us
How can hate get to such a level?
How can care be so absent?
How can you JUST stop being human?
How can one JUST stop caring?
How can one be devoid of love?
WE JUST decide.
It was all there and WE give up
WE lose hope
WE no longer trust
WE believe no one cares so we might as well join the mob
I can make a difference
YOU can make a difference
It all starts with just one petition in earnest.
Then pray for someone else to be able to join you
In unison WE can make a difference
We can still love
WE can still make a difference
Just a little while and WE will get there

Back n sold out

Been offline for quite some time.
I could say much has happened
It wouldn't be a lie
It's just whether the significance warrants a post.
Some of it doesn't so I'll leave it.

To note - my phone got lost on the day of "Life's good" post,
My dearest friend in the UK gave me a blessing when she paid for my fees on 31/3/8
On 5/4/8 I was at a wedding sitting next to the pastor’s wife and we chatted about marriage. Bottom line, I need to get a life.
My dearest friend from the UK visited me at work on 29/4/8 and I spent the day with her family on 1/5/8
We should be going out tonight and find out what’s happening at HIFA.
I really wanted to go for the Freshlyground show tonight but I looked for tickets too late.
Sold out.
Will go for another show instead but left the time slot free
Just in case we get tickets.
It’s just one of those things I do spontaneously.
Not much thought to it but focus on fun.
Yep, I do that at times.

I’m grateful for my circle of friends coz they just make me.
They made me the way I am to some extent and they continue shaping me.
I’m sorry that I sometimes neglect them.
It’s not intentional but it does happen at times.
I’ll work hard on that.

Disappointed

23/4/8
This just isn't doing. Kuitawo here nhai?
I'm disappointed, I think that's what it is.
Disappointment.
It's one of those things you never expect from some people.
Maybe becoz I've put them on some of pedestal.
not really.
I just look up to those guys and I expect a bit much from them.
I'm human after all.
Judge and thou shall not be judged, right?
I'm willing to be judged by the measure I use at the least.

My story?
Heard this morning that a local preacher committed suicide yesterday.
He's a man I looked at as one of those truly blessed people.
He was a powerful preacher.
Apparently he had marital issues
But still, suicide.
I'm disappointed.
that's just a NO-NO for me.
You just don't do that.
I know things can get to that stage.
Bu still, suicide's not the way out.

How will you face Him?
Will you even be allowed to see Him?

It's difficult for me to say things got to that stage and he couldn't turn back.
this is just one of those things I'll put on the list of questions to God.
I just need to know how such happens and how He lets it be.
Maybe I was expecting too much, but I don't think so.
He was a role model fro the youth and the about to be married guys.
And for aspiring preachers- you just wanted that powerful voice
And be able to move people the way he did.

Why am I saying it's just not right.
this is just one of those weapons used by the devil to put us down.
How many are like me?
Disappointed by a man of the cloth?
Will I still look up to any other person the way I did him?
Will I expect that much from a mere mortal?

That's the real battle.
My trust.
Man's trust.
It's never been in man.
It's always been in Him.
I just trust His creation to some extent and expect that much from them.
Just that much.
And if they fail?
Well, I keep on trying and bank questions for THAT DAY.
Ah well, I guess life can be complicated at times and we do have very different breaking points.
We still have the choice.

True, life's good

I will declare it till the day I die,
Life's good.
I don't have half of what I deem I need,
Yet I'm happy saying" what I don't have I don't need, till I get it"
Something about needs and wants just makes me say I've got what I need.

What I treasure most is relationships.
Odd?
Never!!!!!!
Friends.
I'm yet to do my ode to friendship.

Get a friend and be one and you'll agree- life's good.

Definitely going

So I’ve been quiet for some time. Reason below.
I’m still loving my life and this new fad of making friends.
I think by now only about six or so pple are missing from a bunch I worked with straight from school- and they haven’t changed. Good coz they still love life(I can see by their smiles)

Oh Life! It can be lovely at times and then at times u just wanna quit.
Quit is how I sometimes feel but I quickly brush it away coz that ain’t me. Honestly. That’s not me.

Sometimes I feel like shouting. I seldom do shout. Shout for joy.
Just the joy of living.

My circle of friends is just on weird thing about me. Somehow I like hanging on the net and chatting and txting. Calling somehow died in me sometime back. It just happened. N way for the ones I haven’t talked to in ages it’d help to call or have a lunch date or something- somehow my life is full.
Then again it’s empty.
I’m just not getting my thoughts straight right now.
Thought I had something going but my mind’s not here right now. It’s next to me. It wants to go home. Ok, just for 2 day I’ll appease it and GO.
Coz this is coming out like I’m losing my touch.
Going
Going
gone!
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