Life? or Issues

So I’m lying back when I should be screaming
Not again?!!!?!?!!?!

When things seem to go pleasantly along with my thoughts and expectations
They just have a way of disobeying logic just for the sake of nudging me a bit
Well, so it seems with my life.
I seldom plan things
I hope for things to happen
I sometimes make things happen
But to honestly chart my course…..
That I’ve left for my Creator
Seriously, I gave up on that one long back
So my life is full of risks when you look from some vantage point
Do I see them as risks?
I see them as consequences of not having a plan
What it could boil down to is fear
Fear of failure
So I’d rather not plan?
Nah! It’s just a nice mess, my life
Messy coz it’s as clear as mud
But very simple at that
Not demanding
But having standards
VERY risky when it comes to relationships
I’ve decided that’s how to live my life to the full
Love all I can
I’m a giver and what I know I can always give abundantly is love
And so I risk all and continue starting friendships with all sorts of people in all sorts of ways praying that my life will impact them in some way
I’m glad that a few have testified that I changed their perspective on life or the way to navigate around life
It’s the calmness I approach life with that interests them, so they say
Honestly speaking, I just do not have that many cares in life
The biggest care I’ve got, next to my relationship with God, is my family
That I can fuss about
That I can loose sleep over
Anything else?
NOTHING
Things like friends, relationships, society, work, education, achievements all vie for a place amongst the two or want to be a third, but I decided long back those are the only two things worth my sleep
And so most days I rest easy.

There’s a storm outside my window but it’s not my job to worry about it
I actually saw it brewing before I went to bed but still abed I went
When I should arise that’s when I’ll look for whatever’s applicable for the kinda weather then
For now……..I sleep.