Teary smile

At least I’ll remember that I smiled in the morning
A mountainwings joke did it
Call it fear, I call it fear
A year ago I was in tears inconsolable
A year after I’m at that point once again
At least this time it’s not over the same issue
This time it’s about an issue I’ve given up on
I’m just not made to exert myself on such
Call it regressive and I’m bound to agree
I’m moving back home
I’ve been away for just 3 months and I’m tired
I’m going back to my mum’s
Explaining it brings tears to my eyes
I guess it’s one of those things one cannot explain
I don’t even want to ask why
I sort of know why
It’s that part of life one has to go thru to prepare them for something else
I’m still wondering WHAT
Like I said, I’m tired
I’m exhausted
At least today I smiled.