Promising

It's a week that's promising to be beautiful like no other
I had a lovely weekend hanging with friends
Had a long chat with another girlfriend about life
And today people are wearing my colour
And they're all wearing it so well!
It's a blue Monday
No Monday blues here, but just the beautiful colour
How many things have that as their natural colour
Not many
And those which have it....
Aren't they just lovely
There's a reason why I like that colour
The shades of blue.......
Yes, it will be a lovely week.

And so.......

I took one of those trips across blogger land and I’m back.
It’s been quite interesting the blogs I came across
At some point I don’t know why but I thot I shouldn’t connect with people on another continent
Then I thought- prejudice……prejudice….
So I may take the leap- note- may
The issue at hand is that I seem to connect with some of the people I come across
They’re so different from me but there’s so much happening in our lives that’s similar at the point at which I come across their blogs
I still maintain there’s a reason I come across all that I do in life
Yeah, some of it is rubbish but some of it is meaningful stuff
Some have actually made it to be on my blog list (yeah, yeah, as if matters two cents-maybe it does)
I did say I like reading
I was about to put a disclaimer on whether I endorse whatever’s posted on the blogs I read, then I thought ‘ do I really need to account to someone right now?’
NOT!
I was feeling rather violated in some way
I know I liked the thing of having a website and putting it on Facebook and my closed mind somehow actually believed none of my friends would look for that site
Yeah, obtuse me
I did it and I will not delete any of my blogs
Now that I know there’s someone reading what I write, it know kinda makes me want to edit all I write about, so to speak
I’m a bit guarded when I write- at times, not always
And also there was this issue on why I even started blogging
I stumbled across it and I liked it
Then the polishing of what write and formats and content…all such stuff
I’ve now got three different blogs on blogger for that
Still I felt I needed to let go coz I’m feeling under the microscope
So I did it
Actually I have no idea why I’m writing about it
But I created another blog on another…….
Just know there’s a fourth notepad of mine on the net
So I said it.

Moments with my mum

This is just but one of the wonderful memories I will treasure
We spent the weekend at home
Home is my mum’s place, my place I’m yet to call it that
We had quite a nice time just being together
It’d been long since such a crowd gathered at my mum’s
With moving out it’s now a very small unit and I guess not much diversity in terms of events
She’s the one person I know who keeps on giving no matter what
She’ll tell u u’ve done so and so and she doesn’t like it but since u need the help she’ll still extend her hand
Despite some relationships that have gone bad,
I have never heard her say she will never help that person becoz of what they did
I guess that’s just her
She has two grand children and expecting two more in the next three months
So…..she did shopping for them and I know it was hard for her deciding what to give to which daughter and the colours and all that stuff
I’m at a loss for words trying to describe my weekend
It was just lovely
I miss her nowadays coz we spend just a few days together
I guess I now know the feeling of nostalgia
There’s so much she still does for me despite me being away from home
And it just makes me feel I could never do without her
She’s always been there for me and now I miss her so much……

Vices n Virtues

Somehow I got hung up trying to come up with a post on virtues without much research and I still want something to post so here goes.
Virtue (n.)- asset, good quality, good feature, desirable quality, good value, good worth, high merit, high calibre.
Doesn’t it all sound so good? I then got to remember the opposite and decided it’d be the opposite that I’d focus on coz somehow it’s a bit easier expounding on that without having to do much research on my part.
Vice- a practice or habit that is considered immoral, depraved, and/or degrading in the associated society.
When you think of virtues goodness come to mind and it’s just that simple to think of all the good things one should and can do. But when it comes to vices we seldom really look at what we ought not to do. We look at the top line veils and we know ‘we don’t do that’ and leave the rest to imagination as we consider our ‘small evils’ not worth mentioning.
So I’m just going to just pick seven from the Bible and leave you to ponder on them. It’s what I consider to be a very succinct summary of vices we all push back and are guilty of most of the times. I’m bringing them up becoz the Lord abhors them

A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood,. An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief, A false witness that speaketh lies, and he that soweth discord among brethren.- PROVERBS 6:18-19

Scheduling

So, I'm now using this feature so that i stop this thing of not posting daily or letting my feelings stop me from doing my favourite pasttime.
I just hope in terms of Dewdrops my timing is appropriate for those who pass by and they will find something helpful when they do pass by. I'm just trying to do all I can, when I can to help others and to spread the good news. I just remebered Wesley ;) and I will desist from quoting him. Google it!

Though it tarry, it will not tarry

I had to separate these posts so as not to loose the shout out I wanted to make.
Once again it’s a time when God has shown outright that He’s in control all the time. By the way I’m in Zimbabwe :) Recently we had a landmark agreement made politically and it’s meant to be the dawning of new era. I’m sure I’m not the only one holding my breath so that I know when I let it out it’s truly a sigh of relief .I am non-partisan but I really know this has God’s hand in it- especially the timing. It’s come at a time when people had just about given up hope. We were at a point where most people were now involved in shady deals just to get thru the day and not many cared to help. Help or whatever form of assistance had a price tag attached if you even got to that stage.
There’s a lot of promise- and one member to the agreement even committed the deal to God’s hands. For me it’s not so much if he meant it but just the remembrance and the hope it can rekindle in someone who’s listening means a lot to me and know it even can be the starting point for a conversation with God for someone who’d ditched such a relationship.
Breakthroughs happen every day. I had one yesterday and at work there’s been one as well. It’s not the best deal there can be, but at least it’s something almost decent. Yeah, that sort of stuff where diction just cannot help you say yes coz you just cannot.
Thanks be to the Lord for when His people look for him in earnest, He will answer.
“though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.”

I love this quote from Psalms, “For this shall every one that is godly pray unto thee in a time when thou mayest be found: surely in the floods of great waters they shall not come nigh unto him.” 32v6.

For someone looking from outside they felt for us. They were sure this was just the ultimate trial and they just did not understand how we could still get thru the day. Many still call us docile becoz we did not go on the streets and make nois
My friends, the battle has just begun coz we have just dislodged one of the enemy’s stronghold on our population. Many were at the end of their rope and about to give up but…….halleluiah!!!!!! We smile once again as a nation;))e for change. (have you not heard………blessed are the meek?)
The few who chose to quietly go down on their knees and make petitions for the country are today giving thanks for surely we all would have perished were it not that His ear hears the voice of each of His children. Maybe someone will say I’m of that view becoz I had food on my table everyday. That may have been so but I still came across those in position less than me and I had to help. That’s how I know the point we were now at. That’s how I know what we were praying for. That’s how I know the kind of petitions the Lord had coming His way on a daily basis from my fellow Zimbabweans. I smile becoz we did not get to the point where someone would know that we were not seeking God’s help. The storm from outside seemed like it was so strong there was no way we could commune with Him with such challenges daily. But His grace is so much that we still knelt in prayer and petitioned Him for relief. This month something’s indeed afoot in the heavenlies. The battle still rages on a daily basis, but September 2008 is different for Zimbabwe. Maybe our timing was such that we’d focus on prayer this month and then see the fruit afterwards.
But God has His timing. A few of His children could not wait until then, a select few had petitioned and their fruits are now being seen by all. My prayer right now is that we do not go back on our plan to continually seek Him as a nation as relief is now on the horizon.

My friends, the battle has just begun coz we have just dislodged one of the enemy’s stronghold on our population. Many were at the end of their rope and about to give up but…….halleluiah!!!!!!
We smile once again as a nation;))

The quote thing

Seems I’m on a roll as regards looking at quotations. I like this one. “Anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows, but only empties today of its strength.” - Charles H. Spurgeon
I had a bad headache yesterday and had to retire early. After lying down a bit I was fine. I was being anxious about what I saw as inevitable. Even after seeing a possible way out I just didn’t accept it straight away. After mulling over all that’d been said during the day and what was on offer I saw that I was wasting time by worrying. It never makes even a hair grow.
So now I’m my sunny self again. I knew I was back on track as I admired the beautiful morning as I breathed the fresh morning air as I waited for a ride to work.
Life is till lovely despite anxieties we insist on calling ours.
There indeed is so much strength in today as we let go of what we don't know and put it in God's hands.

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann 1927

Teary smile

At least I’ll remember that I smiled in the morning
A mountainwings joke did it
Call it fear, I call it fear
A year ago I was in tears inconsolable
A year after I’m at that point once again
At least this time it’s not over the same issue
This time it’s about an issue I’ve given up on
I’m just not made to exert myself on such
Call it regressive and I’m bound to agree
I’m moving back home
I’ve been away for just 3 months and I’m tired
I’m going back to my mum’s
Explaining it brings tears to my eyes
I guess it’s one of those things one cannot explain
I don’t even want to ask why
I sort of know why
It’s that part of life one has to go thru to prepare them for something else
I’m still wondering WHAT
Like I said, I’m tired
I’m exhausted
At least today I smiled.

My hair

Things do change-unexpectedly
I’d planned to get my hair done by my usual hair dresser back at home
So I took time off work and made the call for an appointment
She’s gone!
I knew she’d eventually go but I never thought it’d be this soon
Anyway my dilemma was now what do I do?
I had to get my hair braided
I needed someone I could trust to do it perfectly
She’s the only one I knew
I need to see someone’s work before they touch my hair
I love my hair
So I make the dreaded search for a hairdresser over the phone
My sister was a great help
She recalled seeing perfect braids and asked who’d done them
It was guys!
I’ve got this thing about male hairdressers
I just hope they’re straight
Honest, that’s the first thing that comes to mind when it’s men and women’s hair
Call it a prejudice, it’s the truth
Anyway I had to have my hair done and I did ask the question
Well, I hinted…….
Needless to say, I was laughed at
It’s not meant to be my issue their sexual orientation, so they said
It has to be coz I see myself as accepting such traits
It’s one of those things I won’t delve into but I say it’s just wrong
So I meet one of the guys and ask if they can do what I want and the charge
To my relief, the four minute conversation says he’s straight
So, I got my hair done by two brothers whom I’m glad to say are 100% straight and know how to braid
It’s one of those things that I find myself in and hope I’ll still be able to control coz I like controlling such things
After all, it’s my hair and my look.

The colour of mud

Right now I really want to rant and rave
But, about what?
LIFE!!!!!!!!
It’s just a muddle
I do not like the colour of the puddle right now coz I cannot name the colour
If I could just name the colour then I’d know what’s up under the water
I’d know what’s fallen into my puddle to make such a muddle
I’d know what colour to expect next
I’d know if I need more effort to diffuse this puddle or let it be
This puddle matters coz it’s the biggest in the muddle
It sort of controls the other puddles
Call it the mother puddle
It started it all and now it’s the centre of attention
OH!
I’m now hunting for a colour encyclopaedia
I trust it’s been seen before
I hope it’s not a transition colour unnoticed by human eyes before

Tight boots

This is quite a familiar phrase
Someone else’s shoes
Apparently everyone has a pair of shoes they’re putting on
There seems to always be a dilemma when one tries to imagine themselves in the other person’s shoes
What if my shoes are too tight?
What if I don’t like my shoes?
Where can I get an exchange?
Right now I feel I’m wearing tight little boots
I’m thinking of carrying on barefoot- I just wish there was soft grass everywhere for me to walk on
Just the feel of that soft grass carpet
Oh! Such comfort
I really need to put off these shoes and put on a new pair
By the way……I don’t want to wear anyone else’s shoes
I’m just after a new unworn pair that fits otherwise I’m going barefoot.

I'm tired

I’m tired of trying to make ends meet
It’s something I never put effort on before
Nowadays I’m doing what I didn’t envision myself doing 4 months ago
How will I get to work tomorrow?
It’s inevitable –almost, sort of
It’s the country I live in
What I’m contending with is the amount of energy I put in getting to the end of the week
Right now we’ve got enough inflation to go round the whole population each getting 1%
I really wish things would get back to normal
The old days wish from a modern day ancient called me
I want to ask the guy with the cart how much bananas are so that I know how many I can get and not so that I decide if I should buy
I want to be able to stop the ice-cream cart and buy an ice lolly coz it’s hot
I want to be able to buy meat for the whole month in one go
I want to be able to spoil myself and my friends when I get paid
I don’t want to budget when I think of buying a friend a birthday gift
I want to be able to buy fresh bread off the shelf and not some street corner
I want to drive to my nephew’s school with top up tuck and cheers from the family
I want to go to the bank just twice a month and swipe the whole month thru
I want to drive out of town and visit a place I’ve never been before
I want to plan a holiday outing for myself and friends
I want…………….
I want to smile when I se bank notes in my jacket pocket before I send it to the cleaners’
Actually, I want to send my jackets to the cleaners more often
So many wants
What do I need?
I need to go to the bank and get bus fare for tomorrow
So out of my reverie and tracks to the bank

Desires

So I took this leap of faith just over a month ago
I said to myself, 'I've got nothing to loose'
True dat, but it’s just infuriating the time and energy expended
So I lost something?
Energy cannot be lost it can only be transmitted….that jazz means the other party gained something at my cost…..whatever
Yeah, whatever
And will I keep on leaping?
I think so.
Was impressed whilst reading Daniel and he’s thrice described as greatly beloved
And my centre references say this means a man of desires
Cross checked and some translations just say it as a man of desires
The fascination is with what it means
He’s the one person who was described as after God’s own heart
Imagine that!
It’s not an excuse for me to hide behind but I know deep down what I feel is true
There is no way I cannot love
I grew up to know love and be able to share love
we were created that way
For me, it's unstoppable
Don't get me wrong, I don't love recklessly
It’s one of those things I cannot stop myself from doing
I care…..
I love……..
I hurt…..
I still love.

Changes

Once again I change my mind
This time it's situational
Right now I feel as if I'm throwing in the towel
But I know if I take this road things will change for the better
I know a lot of people will see it as retrogressive coz what they see will lead them to conclude such
If they need to know why, then they just need to ask me
i know it will be for the better
My timing just has to be perfect
I'm praying on that
I'm taking a step forward
I've been at this spot for so long, I'm almost a unnoticeable
It's a big change
Pray for me also.

Mediocre? NOT!

I'm a millionaire!
Yep, hit the mark once again despite debasing of our currency by a billion a month ago
I just had to give a shout out for that
I thank the Lord for helping me get there especially seeing as I haven't been trading in a long time
His wisdom always guides me and gives me the nudge when I go astray

This has been basically a horrible week
I've been doing a lot of running around
I've been doing some soul searching and I had to make some rather brash decisions now that I look at it
But I had to coz I just couldn't stay in limbo
It’s this thing I’ve got with being in suspense
What I need to know is a simple YES or NO
The maybe’s I don’t deal with so well
Especially when it comes to decisions concerning my life
So in such cases I treat them as no’s
It may have been very rash but it’s been affecting what I aspire for in life and it just had to be answered
Will be doing something I’ve tried for the past two weeks for the last time this weekend
I cannot just disappear so I’m going to say good bye
It was one of those things you do as a trial version and you hope the reason will hold and stick in the years to come

Suffice to say it won't be expected but I'm going to do it anyway
And my try’s going to be over in a day
‘Twas something I’ll sit and talk about one day as I reminisce about this life
Ah, the bliss of memory.

New Homes

Yesterday was a terrible work day. It had many let downs. It also had many revelations. There are many things I push aside becoz I don’t want to focus on them right now. Yesterday they just came to the fore and I had to deal with them. I’m glad they did. I know I’m dealing with that laziness streak.
Now my family’s growing up. I moved out in June, my brother yesterday and my sister’s moving out on Friday. I guess I never imagined that this is how it’d happen. I only pictured us visiting each other at our separate homes but I never conjured how that’d come about. The most I did was just to accept that somehow people would move out on their own. Maybe becoz we’re not a typical example of a Zimbabwean family that’s why the moves had to happen the way they did and with such timings. My prayer right now is that the binds will grow stronger despite the proximity of each of us to the next sibling. That did happen in my case and I pray that the same now happens for all of us. We used to joke and laugh about what each of the home’s would be like and the kind of hospitality offered. Now pudding’s done and the taste will be in the eating. I’ll almost bet on this one- exotic flavour!

Words in the wind

All this stuff
All these thoughts
Why do I have to let all this out
Why can't I just keep quiet
Why should I always have an opinion
Why should I always say the truth
Do I need to always be honest
Why write at all
Why take note of it all
Why debate
Why converse

If I were to answer then this post'd be pointless

I guess that's what we sometimes ask when we think of what's been said
Yes, we can try to take back the words
Yes, we can retract the statements
But the truth of the matter is that words go with the wind
Who can catch the wind, let alone chase it
The pursuit will never end
So when we do say something
Let's remember that the wind carries those words and taking them back is mission impossible

Searched out

I’ve been there
Done that
Thought that
Seen that
Heard that
Read that
Said that
Wished that

So I ask why am I still being searched out?
Honestly,
WHY??????????????????

Life? or Issues

So I’m lying back when I should be screaming
Not again?!!!?!?!!?!

When things seem to go pleasantly along with my thoughts and expectations
They just have a way of disobeying logic just for the sake of nudging me a bit
Well, so it seems with my life.
I seldom plan things
I hope for things to happen
I sometimes make things happen
But to honestly chart my course…..
That I’ve left for my Creator
Seriously, I gave up on that one long back
So my life is full of risks when you look from some vantage point
Do I see them as risks?
I see them as consequences of not having a plan
What it could boil down to is fear
Fear of failure
So I’d rather not plan?
Nah! It’s just a nice mess, my life
Messy coz it’s as clear as mud
But very simple at that
Not demanding
But having standards
VERY risky when it comes to relationships
I’ve decided that’s how to live my life to the full
Love all I can
I’m a giver and what I know I can always give abundantly is love
And so I risk all and continue starting friendships with all sorts of people in all sorts of ways praying that my life will impact them in some way
I’m glad that a few have testified that I changed their perspective on life or the way to navigate around life
It’s the calmness I approach life with that interests them, so they say
Honestly speaking, I just do not have that many cares in life
The biggest care I’ve got, next to my relationship with God, is my family
That I can fuss about
That I can loose sleep over
Anything else?
NOTHING
Things like friends, relationships, society, work, education, achievements all vie for a place amongst the two or want to be a third, but I decided long back those are the only two things worth my sleep
And so most days I rest easy.

There’s a storm outside my window but it’s not my job to worry about it
I actually saw it brewing before I went to bed but still abed I went
When I should arise that’s when I’ll look for whatever’s applicable for the kinda weather then
For now……..I sleep.