Reflection on death

So here I’m sitting all alone in the office

We’ve basically shut down for the year

I could go home and find stuff to do but I just had to blog for the last time in 2009

As I sit and muse at what I did in the year, I cannot help but thank God

I thank God for keeping me this whole year through

It wasn’t by any act of mine or wisdom of self that I’ve made it thus far

It’s His grace

I’ve lost some dear people I knew in my life

The most profound loss I had and felt this year was a guy from the hood named Zekiah

He passed away in November after succumbing to injuries from a road accident

He was only twenty

Why his death got to me was because I refused to believe he could just die like that

When I was told that he was involved in an accident I quickly prayed that he would not die

I wanted his injuries not to be that serious

I just couldn’t believe it when I was told two days later that he’d passed away

He was my youngest brother’s friend

I was sort of the replacement for my brother when he went to S Africa and we were chummies of some sort

I had become like a sister of sorts to him

But God’s timing had come for him

Then just last week I get home to receive news that a neighbour had passed away that afternoon

It was two days before Christmas

Arthur’s system just shut down due to an asthma attack

He left behind a wife and a young boy barely four

Why I was shocked is because it was all so sudden

That day many people saw and talked to him

He’d actually gone to get his medication earlier in the day and the nurses were shocked when he was wheeled in the same afternoon at the point of death

Again God’s time had come

I believe in the ongoing battle between life and death

Each day we start afresh the battle we left the day before

Each day that battle just may be lost if God’s time has come

However we fight the battle, one day it may be lost if His timing is before Jesus’ second coming

My family this year has been kept alive and I thank God for that

There were many instances when anyone of us could have succumbed to death but by God’s grace we are all still alive and well

It doesn’t take much for death to come when it has finally been allowed to take over

What we have to do is make sure that we are ready when death is granted that wish

How can one be ready for a day that only God knows?

We make ready each and every day if we want death to be to the physical and not your spirit

Unfortunately many of us believe we still have time on this earth

There are many things we’ve postponed to tomorrow, later

Postponed to when things are more stable

To when we are a bit older, to NOT NOW

Oh, foolish man!

Why should you plan thus unless you have given your life to Him?

Only when you know He knows you and He has spoken to you can you even plan about tomorrow

And when you do know Him, you will know that you have to be ready each waking day

Only the blessed few will know it is time and have the chance to commit their spirits unto him before leaving this earth

For the rest, we have to prepare daily

If we postpone coming to Him we are only being foolish

Yes, unless He draws us to him can we go to Him

But how do we expect to hear Him when we’ve shut ourselves in us and refuse to believe His voice

I believe now is the time to make ready for eternity

No one knows where we’ll be tomorrow except Him

There are many watchmen around

Take heed

Their hands are clean as they’ve told you the Word

Now some watchmen can rest but why do you refuse to listen to their message?

Now is the time of your calling

Be prepared.

And last of all......

"at this season of the year we should think of - of - ourselves. We should look into our - our accounts. We should feel that every return of so eventful a period in human transactions, involves a matter of deep moment between a man and his - and his banker."

Ghosts

I, for one, don’t really believe in them to some extent

What compelled me to title this post as such is that I somehow had encounters of similar apparitions in real life

Made me feel kinda like Scrooge in a Christmas Carol

Here’s my story

A bloke comes up and pours his heart out to me and professes his undying love for me

Hold on, this is the first time I’m seeing this guy and he truly wants me to give him a chance

Hello, I don’t believe in being stalked and I believe in a bit of chit chat so that I have an idea who you are so that I’ll see if I’m up to playing game with you EVER at all

As if that wasn’t enough a blast from the past lets me know that they’re in town and wants to have a drink

People!

I don’t have space for such acquaintances especially now

I cleaned out my closet and I’m not taking back what I threw away

I’m also not taking in any new stuff just on the basis that it’s something new

NO!

I don’t want any meaningless or time consuming baggage

I let go and will not venture into taxing relationships

When I don’t feel like it I just don’t

I think with both my heart and my mind and when my heart don’t leap at first sight of you, my brain’s been conditioned to ask why?

And when brain says why, answer is a flat NO, coz heart wasn’t involvedJ

(heart's been hurt many a time when brain didn't play ball when heart skipped a beat, so the two are now BFFs coz brain was stressed most of the time coz of letting heart roam at will)

I love the way I’ve simplified this whole choosing process

It may be viewed too pragmatic but it’s working for me

As if the ghosts of the past and what could be aren’t enough for me to handle in one week,

Along comes another one

This isn’t a ghost at all

It’s just a mist

You talk to someone on your way from church and they figure you’re theirs just like that

Yes, just like that, and they go and tell their sister they’ve found themselves someone to wife

I was shocked beyond words and I just couldn’t muster the courage to tell the sister that he brother assumed too much from the single contact which truly speaking came about from having attended the same service and happening to be almost on the same path home

But seriously guys,

Is that how things now work?

Hunt, see something and just claim it’s yours even when the catch is in someone’s trap?

Ok, I’ll forgive you for not seeing that the catch is in someone else’s trap but to call hoe and tell the family to prepare cooking a rabbit when the rabbit is not yet in your grasp,

You haven’t even let go an arrow in the rabbit’s direction but just becoz you’ve imagined it, the family’s gotta prepare dinner?

Guys, give me  break and do tell if I’m just being too unrealistic and have been left behind the tides of change in this dating world

What I know is that I’m not up for it

If alone I’ll be becoz of my views, then what will be will be

Ce que sera, sera, mes amis

I really hate busting someone’s bubble but at times one has to be frank and not pretend for the sake of someone who’ll you’ll only hurt more by not being frank in the first place

My resolutions for next year?

I’m still working on it, but count on Frank being thereJ

Cheating men

What is with men?
They come across someone who’s friendly and single and the next thing is that they want to know that person more
Hello……..
You’re married for heaven’s sake
And I don’t date people I do business with
However attractive, available.....whatever
Business is business.
Period.

Why?
It’s the AFTER that I don’t ever want to deal with say that relationship doesn’t work out and you still have to be in contact with that person regularly
Just becoz I’m friendly doesn’t mean that I want to have an affair
Just becoz I’m single doesn’t mean I want to be paired up
Being single is no crime for crying out loud
I’ve totally stopped being friends with such males who want a funny relationship with me or start calling me pet names

That behaviour appals me to say the least
I’ve actually at some point have had to spell out that why I’m cutting ties with some people
I have to be that frank at some point coz talking to someone’s wife about who you are and why their husband is texting you isn’t my cup of tea
Tell the man point blank to behave and if he knows what’s good for him he’ll stop nagging you for that lunch/call/chat/whatever

I don’t even wonder that it could be my disposition that makes these men behave the way they do
They’re just too greedy/lustful and not grateful for what they have
I guess it’s true when they say you don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone
It’s a pity coz some families break up becoz of men who just cannot control themselves
You may say that stolen fruit is the sweetest
But do you ever think how you’ll carry on without any fruit at all

I wish all men knew of the 80/20 rule when it comes to relationships
Men, behave

Tolerance

That's a word!
I'm not one to judge but I'm one to say out my mind
There's just a fine line between what passes as ok for family viewing in my book
I'm one of those who can only afford to watch free channels from SA hence my view is thus biased
I was commenting some time back about how the soapies & dramas somehow all took on the same subject at the same time
They played around with the issue of being gay
One soap just brushed it aside after pushing it strongly for some weeks and the persons involved just went away from the spotlight and their sexual orientation was just not discussed
the other one did a couple of episodes and the character disappeared
The last clean one toyed with the minds of viewers and we decided before they came out on their own
They led us to decide that a character was gay before finally tackling the issue
And up to this day they still haven't brought the issue to the forefront nor have they even made a character vent their views on the topic save for the person who will be most devastated by knowing their son is gay
My point?
It's not an easy topic for discussion
For me I drew the line long back based on the Bible
It's just not right
Tell me about genes and all such stuff and I'll tell you my theory on how we as humans have academically succeeded justify all our actions
Rights also fall into that category in my books
Yes, yes, we all have the right to choice
But what if our choices impinge on the freedom of another?
We don't live in a vacuum but just up to where is our tolerance getting us to?
Why can we not just call right what it is and wrong what it is and not mix it all up with rights and freedom
Just because one is free does not mean that they should do whatever they wish
Maybe I'm being judgemental but we all need to come clean on life issues

Look at how many things we've managed to put the umbrella of freedom and rights and where we are because of that

If you truly believe I'm just being a hater, ask yourself this

What would you do if your own child told you that they were gay

How would you handle that

As far as your gene pool is concerned there’s not been anyone thus inclined and here's your own offspring telling you that

Hang on,

Maybe the child experience may be too much for someone without experience with children even those of a relation

What if your dearly beloved tells you that they want to go on the other side coz they just no longer feel it for you

They feel that the other side is what they've been wanting all along and were just not realising it

Now they know and need to come clean, that's just the way it is

There is 'what you would', 'what you could' and 'what you will'

Which choice will it be?