In the past

The song “Just someone I used to know” was playing
It’s then that I got to thinking about the words of the song
Actually, I looked for the lyrics and some words ring true
I got a call yesterday from a blast from the past
It’s a he
We used to be friends and things just changed and when he got married
I can say that’s when the friendship ended
There were jealousy issues with the wife so I stepped aside
I thought it’d be just one of those associations that will turn right with time
People grow up and most mature even if they thought they wouldn’t
Apparently I was wrong
Things won’t be as before and I’m not prepared to resuscitate that friendship
I’m ok with just the casual chat here and there and the obligatory hi’s when we meet
He’s not
He wants my e-mail and said he’s going to look for me on facebook
Old flames don’t make friends at all in my books
There’s that quiet time when the idea “what if” pops in
So best to avoid those chances/situations
Maybe he’s going thru a time when he needs friends
I just no longer trust people as much as I used to
I learnt the hard way that trusting people will make you see who your real friends are and that hurts
Like I said before, many ‘friends’ are associates in my books
It’s complicated, but so’s life
I’ll listen for as long as he insists on calling
I pray that he’s sincere in his intentions otherwise he’ll not like what I’ll say to him as far as this acquaintance is concerned
Correction, he’s not a blast from the past, just a good friend I used to have
Poeple often thought we were an item but that wasn't the case
We just got on so well people assumed it was becoz we were dating which is something we never did
We just hung out with other friends and at some point we both wre involved with someone else
He used to say that when a guy and a girl are friends there’s one of them who’s interested in the other and just won’t say it for the sake of the friendship
I didn’t agree
I was happy with us just being friends and apparently he was not
The reason I’ll take his calls is that maybe, just maybe, he needs help
I quit sometime being friends with just one of two people- issues come up when the other person is insecure or the person you’re friends with just says things they don’t mean and don’t say so
It’s complicated - sometimes

Paired up

This is the paired up world I live in.
NB- I’m talking of work coz that’s where I spend most of my time
At head office there were four single people two guys & two girls
As of two weeks ago only the girls remain single
I’m one of those two
The guys went and paid their lobola and they’re on the way to the paired up world
At home there were two of us singletons and guess what-
I’m the only one left
She eloped
So everyone expects that I’ll be next
Yeah all right, I’ll be next
But not when they expect coz I also don’t know when
I really cannot make a conscious decision on when to get married coz that’s just how it is
I’m way past the expected marriage age and everyone believes I’m worried
I’m not
At times I actually worry over their worry coz it’s just too much
My time just is not yet
Soon, but not yet
Tough it tarry, it will not tarry
Till now I’ve been blessed to learn from other people how not to start a marriage
How to keep it alive
Things to avoid when in comes to family issues and your new family
Most of all you could dream of about marriage, I’ve learnt as an observer
I guess I’m just being prepared for the marriage I’ve always desired
That built on God’s love and principles
It’s a mission finding the right guy
Best is not to look for that guy
He’ll find you when the time is right
If you look for him you just may end up stuck with a guy who was meant to just pass by and leave you with some lesson on relationships
If you commit to the guy chances are he may still leave you with the lesson and a divorce certificate
My views totally
I’m waiting for that guy for as long as it takes and when he comes I’ll be the Proverbs 31 wife he’s been praying for
For now, I wait and do all that I can as a single person for the Lord
It’s only now that I can serve Him as a single person so why loose time chasing for a guy who’s looking for me?