Do I really mean it?

There have been times that I wish that i wasn't African.
Just that
Not that I want to be any other colour but just that my descent sometimes does get on my nerves
At times
Not always
Actually not a lot of times
Ok, ok
It happened this month that I actually did wish I wasn’t African
Case?
It’s proving elusive right now but it’s to do with culture
My mind wants to go to superstition but that only happened two days ago
It’s the culture thing
Or is it just people trying to mask their hidden intentions behind culture?
Since I was a young tot I remember that I tended to be rebellious at times
Not just for the sake of wanting to be
But for the sake of straight answers
I just need to know why things are the way they are
Why follow things just becoz someone says so?
Back to my case
I lost it
I got into a fight with people at home
And I still stand my ground
I will not be forced to believe things that cannot be substantiated
Nothing to do with faith
Just plain facts
You guessed it,
I lost the plot
Will get back to it when I remember more than just the title.