Really?

Up to now I didn't really believe there are people who are there just to be used as ur torture vessels. And many seem to be happy just doing that. I didn't think being here again would make me this homesick. I miss home. Much more so becoz most of the people this side just smile out of necessity and it's not from the heart. If they only meant half of what they said that's not intent on malice. Oh, God I need You now. Please help me through the rest of my days in this country. Amen.